Spend the weekend on the couch, just a bit exhausted and a slight cold but managed to get over it. BT and Ultrasound today was all on track, there now seem to be 5 decent sized follicles 10 to 16mm and a few smaller ones.
Next Bt and ultrasound is scheduled for Wednesday and EPU maybe on Friday. Please keep crossing fingers for me.
Sara - only just back on-line today to see the great news that things looking for you this time... yipee! Hope all those follies keep growing over next few days and you get some great quality eggies by friday.
CP - glad you had a relaxed NYE and enjoing some time off in the sun. Best to go into your next cycle all relaxed and hopefully a little less stressed ( if thats possible!)
WTH - hoping AF has reared her ugly head or perhaps not if you are UTD again?!
Haven't been on-line as have been away for past few days. Family holiday which we do every yr with ALL my siblings, neices,nephews etc. This yr went to Lakes Entrance ( in Gippsland, Vic). Weather wasn't as warm as we had hoped so no swimming for any of the adults in vic's cold cold oceans!
Was a nice time away but I still felt tainted by the whole TTC/m/c deal. It was a VERY child oriented holiday and the whole town was full of bellies, babies, kids. Anyway, back home now and counting the days till I stop provera and start another cycle. Hoping we get our 4some of BFP's by the end of feb!
Welcome back Meredith, sounds like a pleasant holiday you had. Lake entrance is beautiful, been there a few years back, quite impressed. Sounds like you are on Provera now and just waiting for AF then anther cycle starts...take it easy hun, not too long to go. I know at this stage, you just wish time can wined up and go quickier...
Sara, good luck with today's b/t and u/s, I hope you see more follies!
WTH, hope you are doing alright!
AFM, because next cycle is a natural FET, I think I am more relaxed ATM, no meds or anything. I will just let time tick along and then suddenly its the time to get pregnant! Not going back to work until next week, so currently struggling to get up early and back into routine. I feel the more you sleep the weaker your body feel. Isn't that funny? Just received a special offer from the local gym (next generation), so I am going to take up that and do some exercise this week. Let's hope that will happen.
Meredith, I love the way you put it '4some BFP in late February', wouldn't that be wonderful to get pregnant together? It will be truely awesome!
Hi everyone, my name's Kel, and I'm wondering your group is taking on any new members? I'm 27, DH is 28, and we've been TTC #1 for a little over four years now. We're in the suppression stage of our first IVF/PGD cycle, and I would like to meet others going through IVF/PGD, as well as make a few cycle buddies if they're around.
Unfortunately things are not looking good. It looks like EPU will be Friday but today there were only three one close to ripe between 17 and 20mm, there are another four but they are much behind between 5 to 14 so probably won't be ready.
Trying to stay calm but I am devastated. Since I have to do PGD because of a dominant genetic condition so can statistically only use 50% and have to wait until Day 5 I don't think I have a chance that ET will be possible. Trying to think that it's positive that I at least got to egg collection since my first cycle was cancelled but not in a good state at the moment.
Sara....I know this is nerve-wrecking time and you can't help but to worry, who doesn't? But I think there is still fair chance for the smaller ones to catch up. Normally follicles grow 2mm a day, so by Friday they will be around 18mm. Also I read sth. last night that 'mature age women' (like us ) tend to have smaller sized follicles but can still contain a mature egg. This is why there tend to be multiple birth around the age of 38-40. So I hope even the follicle sizes are a bit small, they will still contain mature eggs.
Has the nurse confirmed EPU is on Friday? So you have to do trigger tonight right? Try to relax and I will be thinking of you on Friday.
Gotta be quick - thunderstorm outside. I know I have been offline the past few days, but I have been popping in. Just wanted to have something more firm to post...
Sara - the HCG booster also gives your follies quite a boost, so that 14mm one, for example, is a very good contender. Also, at SIVF in Kent St they drained ALL my follies, regardless of size. Cuddlepie is right - you stand in good stead of having more than three
Kel - of course you are welcome here. I look forward to getting to know you and sharing support.
Cuddlepie and Meredith - hiya my lovelies.
AFM - ok, saga in a nutshell. On New Year's Day I spotted and rang the clinic to let them know AF was on it's way. But I felt BLAH (not alcohol induced). POAS = faint 2nd line after time frame. Next day (Friday) same again. Wondered if it might be a cyst?... Saturday 2nd line in 3 mins , but Monday, line not any darker. Rang clinic to inform of BFP. But BT = HCG 30 and lowish P4. Head was swimming. I felt quite ill. Could it be eptopic? Requested 2nd test today and it confirmed my numbers were indeed dropping (HCG 18). AF is just around the corner. Have been assured should be able to start my IVF cycle any day. So I have just had my first official chemical PG/bad implantation/who knows? It should not be an autoimmune response as I have been tested pretty thoroughly. I knew from Monday's numbers things were not looking great, (but for my temping) we did not know exactly where we were in this messed-up post-IVF cycle. But having lost babies between 9 and almost 14 weeks I would much rather lose the baby now. So, yes, I am/was UTD for 5 minutes. Bit of a crap way to start the year, though. Just wanna start jabbing...
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WTH - Oh darl, what a horrible start to 2009. The joy so quickly crushed- I know the feeling all to well and its just horrible.I am so, so sorry. I agree with you that it is at least better to lose your precious bubba now. I know we have both lost most of ours after seeing HBs so this may be at least a touch less heartbreaking. Also, at least you can start your PGD cycle straight away - hopefully that brings some renewed hope. I still can't get over how "random" and complex the whole pg thing is. You transfered a perfect litle blastie last cycle and not even a hint of HCG, yet a probably "not so great" embie has managed to partially get going this time. I don't know if this frustrates you but I find it all so irrational for all of us going through similar events.
Anyway, big hugs to you at this sad time and I hope AF can at least come and go soon.
Sara - Hugs to you too. I can understand your concerns but please don't los hope. Firstly, YOu only need one of those eggies to make a good embie. Plus, if you have a follie or 2 at 14mm then they could defnitely be mature enough by egg collection. At my last scan ( last cycle), I only had about 6 or 7 follies above 15mm, most were below 13mm. 2 days later at EPU, they collected 21 eggs and I managed 14embies so they must have all matured very quickly.
CP - So for your FET, do they just track your cycle once you get AF? Nice not to have to take any meds and seems a more natural way of you body accepting a little one. Hopefully your future child is just passing time in his/her frozen home - ready to grow, grow, grow!
Kel - welcome to our lovely little group. You are certainly most welcome and I hope we can help you along your journey. I am so sorry that you have lost so many along the way. I think we have all had more than our fair share of losses so we understand how tough this baby making business really is.
AFM - Feeing a touch more positive today as the new cycle draws closer. Have ordered some medication from compounding pharmacy and spoke with my nurse today to arrange picking up meds etc. Should be jabbing again by next Thurs... yay!!!
Hi Kel and welcome
I noticed that you are in Brisbane, which clinic do you go to?
Like the other girls have mentioned you are always welcome here although hopefully you won't need to stay long
I can't even imagine what it must be like to have lost so many little angels but i have certainly had my fair share of heartbreak in not being able to fall pregnant - i may just have one of the most depressing signatures out there!
Anyway look forward to getting to know you and good luck with everything.
WTH, oh hun I am sorry for the little up and down. I know at any stage losing a baby is devastating but I agree with you and Meredith, if it is not going to go all the way, its better to be this early. :Hug: take care and I hope the new cycle will renew your hope.
Meredith, glad to know you are feeling a bit positive today. The best way to get motivated is to start another cycle I guess. I hope all will go to plan.
AFM, FS called at 730pm tonight unexpectedly, god bless him still working on these follow up calls...Basically he said he is pleased to see the improvement from D3 to D5 but yet not completely happy on the embyros performance on Day 3 for our last cycle. So he thinks he might change my stimulate plan when I am ready given I've been on lucrin for the last 3 stim cycle. I am not sure what he propose to use but kind of glad he is up to make some changes to make it work better.
Regarding next step, he said we can either do FET next since we still have 1 blasties, or we can do another stim cycle straight away, all depends on how many children we plan to have. If I plan to have more than 1, he would suggest to have stim cycle straight away, so at least we have frozen embies for No.2. Very interesting theory but does make sense and I like his confidence too...
Afterwards, DH & I had a discussion, of course we would love to have more than one child but we think it will be too greedy and too far away to even think of anything until we achieve the very first goal - to have our very first baby in our arms. So we decide to go with FET and hope this is it and worry about No.2 next year! Also from the cost-effective point of view!
Meredith, yeah, I will be doing natural FET in Feb, so no meds just monitoring and then transfer... it will be so much relaxing comparing to stim cycle that's another reason I just can't face another stim cycle straight away...let's try our luck on this one first...
Sara, have you done your trigger tonight? Hope all went well and EPU is on Friday!
Have a nice evening everyone, here is so unbelievably hot! I hope the storm will hit soon...
WTH, while reading your chemical pregnancy, I just want to let out something also bugs me in the last couple of weeks.
After my failed stim cycle, AF was really painful and heavy and lasted about 10 days during Xmas time (usually only 5-6 days), to the point that I get really worried. But on D10, its gone. And I found that I am O late this month too, normally I ovulate on D14 and this month I don't think I did until D16/17...I have been wondering if I had a chemical pregnancy last cycle as well....because I was so so sure I was/felt pregnant! Anyway, its all past and doesn't matter much now, just have to let it out and this is the only place I can do this! Thanks for listening my rambling!
Also waiting for the storm, it's 29C in my bedroom! Thank you all for encouraging me, I am feeling much more positive. Did the trigger at 8.45 and now no more injections until Friday at least.
WTH: I am so so sorry, that must have been a terrible up and down.
Hope you can start jabbing soon and the year will get better day by day.
Meredith: Happy to see that you're sounding more positive, sending you lots of good vibes for your next cycle.
CP: Really astonished about your FS, he seems to really care, that is a really good thing. Also really like that he is thinkign about how to make your cycle work even better.
I'll very much support your decision, just wondering - you know from the position I am in I'd love to have the time back again to be able to do a stimulated cycle with better egg numbers and have some frozen embies in reserve just in case I wanted to have a second child. Don't think that you would be greedy at all to think that way. From the financial point of view it may also be better to do it now with a better possibly a better result than in a few years. Sorry just playing devil's advocate please don't be angry and ignore what i've said. Sending you hugs and lots of luck with FET in February.
Interesting point of view Sara, I really appreciated it. Now you make me think twice... I'd hate in a year or so time that I am kicking myself though...
What should I do? I will give it a few more days then to decide...
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Not going back to work until next week, so currently struggling to get up early and back into routine. I feel the more you sleep the weaker your body feel. Isn't that funny? Just received a special offer from the local gym (next generation), so I am going to take up that and do some exercise this week. Let's hope that will happen.
Sara....I know this is nerve-wrecking time and you can't help but to worry, who doesn't? But I think there is still fair chance for the smaller ones to catch up. Normally follicles grow 2mm a day, so by Friday they will be around 18mm. Also I read sth. last night that 'mature age women' (like us
) tend to have smaller sized follicles but can still contain a mature egg. This is why there tend to be multiple birth around the age of 38-40. So I hope even the follicle sizes are a bit small, they will still contain mature eggs.
of course you are welcome here. I look forward to getting to know you and sharing support.
, but Monday, line not any darker. Rang clinic to inform of BFP. But BT = HCG 30 and lowish P4. Head was swimming. I felt quite ill. Could it be eptopic? Requested 2nd test today and it confirmed my numbers were indeed dropping (HCG 18). AF is just around the corner. Have been assured should be able to start my IVF cycle any day. So I have just had my first official chemical PG/bad implantation/who knows? It should not be an autoimmune response as I have been tested pretty thoroughly. I knew from Monday's numbers things were not looking great, (but for my temping) we did not know exactly where we were in this messed-up post-IVF cycle. But having lost babies between 9 and almost 14 weeks I would much rather lose the baby now. So, yes, I am/was UTD for 5 minutes. Bit of a crap way to start the year, though. Just wanna start jabbing...
I'd hate in a year or so time that I am kicking myself though...
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