thank you for all your replies. In my heart i know the sensible thing to do is to sort out the issues. We have had problems for a few years, and ivf only added to the existing problems. Gosh i haven't told ANYONE this (everyone thinks we are the happy couple). It feels so good to talk about it

I even broke down the night before my epu and told DF that i wanted to freeze my eggs rather than having them fertilised. He convinced me not to. I have thought about us getting relationship counselling, but im worried the counsellor will just tell me to live with it or leave! I am very conscious that a child does not make a mediocre relationship better. Im afraid that ive hung on for the last couple of years because of the ttc.

I will check out the ttc social, thanks for listening.