I hope you are doing well. I have been kind of lurking, I have some good news sort of after being so down my last IVF cycle was converted to IUI. AF arrived last week, a little early, just for fun I did a POAS and had the faintest line. Not thinking anything of it I saw FS 2 days later (Day 2) hoping to start an antagonist cycle. Even after 2 days of full bleed the scan showed my lining was still 12 mm, and I had 3 corpus luteum cysts still at 20mm. FS was concerned and suggested possible implantation and very early M/C even though I didn't mention the +HPT. Had a BT, E2 was 300 and P4 was 15, hcg was 9. Hmm. Based on my calculations and past history, I don't think this hcg is left over trigger (I have had 10,000iu trigger previously and a BT the same time and zip, this time trigger was 5000iu). FS was feeling positive and supported this view based on my lining and my prog levels and suggested we look at this as a chemical pregnancy and that some degree of implantation had taken place. If this is the case can I just say:
In 4.5 years TTC, 9 cycles, 6 ETs and 1 IUI, this is the first time ever I have had even a possiblity of implantation. I hope I am not grasping at straws but this is the best news I have ever heard, this is the farthest I have ever got, the closest I have ever come. I hope you all don't think I am pathetic or delusional, and even if I am wrong at the very least it has given me hope, after fearing this would never work. So that is my news.
I am waiting on results from another BT yesterday to see what E2 and P4 are doing, not sure if FS will want to wait for next AF and hope I have a full bleed or whether she will want to do a curette.
Gargy, Smithy, JBM, Saph, Paula, Lulu, hi to you all, I promise to catch up with personals soon. Love to all
BDT - it is fantastic to see you so happy & optimistic - congratulations on your faint 2nd line. I think all us LTAC-er's have to look for the positive even if it's not quite the 100% H&H baby in hand - it's the little steps and what you learn along the way that will eventually help us find our way to our goal.
For some reason, I don't usually find myself in this thread - but I know most of you - a big hi to you all!
BDTime .. BullieJ wrote exactly what I was thinking, so I wont add to it . Just a little note to say, I completly understand, in no way are you delusional, you have a result, and it is a step closer to another result. And we all know what that is xx
BDT - I was thinking the same it shows that it is possible. I often wonder with not even a sign of it happening is it ment to be but after my melt down yesterday I will continue until I get my answer. I have given myself an unofficial deadline. DS starts school in 2011 if i am not pregnant by then well that will be it. So lets bring on the BFP. By the way I have woken up with a dreadful sore throat so really not confident now for this Cycle. So no treadmill tonight of to bedto save all my energy for fighting of this bug.( also sure that ice cream is a proven cure for a sore throat. LOL)
Before I go just a quick call for advice. We have had 4 OI cycles and 2IUI cycles after this one. I have ovulated in everyone. should I be pushing for IVF now I know that it is more invasive and costly but the failed IUI cycles are starting to add up. FS wants to do 2 more IUI cycles before investigating anything else. He said losing weight would help and lower the dosage required. Well I have lost 10kg and had to up the dose. Go figure. Sorry for the ramble just need to be empowered to take control of my situation, do I have the right to ask to move on to the next stage.
BDT - delusional?? absolutely not....hysterical - yes!! I TOTALLY understand your excitement... you now know it CAN be done - this is half the battle. You have to laugh that something really quite sad can make us soooo happy..
you're half way there sweetie...grasp that hope and run with it..
Sweet Saph - my opinion and mine only - time to push. Yes it will cost you a lot more, but then again, your chances are much higher.I understand your FS is thinking you are still young, have been PG before blah blah..but here's the thing in my eyes..it may not happen straight away...then maybe a few months pass etc etc and your eggs get older - yes even at 30. I so go for it. I wish I did...
Sam - glad u are concentrating on that half full glass... thankyou for your kind words. While you're feeling so happy and giving - wanna come and do my cupboards as well???
Paula - hope the BT shows some good news for your tomorrow..
smithy - hi - I like your pink writing, so cheeerful
WLAB - good luck this cycle, was lurking in "older" thread and saw you are in progress so to speak.
Ms Pink - happy to be of service as long as you've got lots of lovely stuff to throw out. I am opposite of a hoarder!!!! The op shop loves it when I roll up to restock their shelves. Now only if I could stop the stuff getting into my house in the first place!
Saph - do what you feel best about. Your head space is most important I think. If you think IVF would be best then do it, if you think a few more IUI then do that. My AP who treats a lot of TTCers, says they are having more and more success with IUI, as less intervention. There are lots of different opinions
Hi all and lurkers, I have been lurking for a while! can only say hi to those I can scroll up and see posts as so often lose the whole post when try to go back a page and drives me to drink, hey thats a good idea!!
hey Gargy - look after yourself. Hope the kids at school are being good to you.
AFM - I am going to fortune teller tomorrow! Very excited. Love a bit of dingly bongly stuff ( that is my word for "new age" types things). Need to decide whether to stick with FS, he won't give me prednisolone as concerned for side effects and no proven reason to try it (according to him). I can get it elsewhere if I really want to try it and I figure that 5 days worth is not going to have any side effects that I don't want!!! Other decision is whether to thaw all 6 frosties and go to blastocyst, hoping to get 2 (got one out of 5 last time) or to thaw 3 and trf best 2 on day 3. The argument is whether the embryos have better chance inside womb or risk losing few good ones in dish by growing them and chosing the strongest, and whether being inthe dish weakens them. Any thoughts?
Any way happy day to you all.
Last edited by Samandpoppy; April 21st, 2009 at 11:09 PM.
: blathering on more
Well good morning, Sam and Lulu thankyou so much for your advise. I think i will just get through this cycle as see what happens. Have further bloods tomorrow, hopefully E2 will be going back up instead of going down.
Sam good luck with the furtune teller, I have been thinking about going to see if i am ment to have another child or if DS is it. But I have never been and are a little scared of what they might say.
Paula good luck with bt today hopefully your levels are heading in the right direction.
AFM - 12th day of injections 3rd day of upped does to 100ui and I have a throat infection, so off to doctors for some antibiotics, hope this doesn't mean that I have to cancel cycle. I can say that I wasnt a picture of health when I fell preg with DS,I concieved 3 weeks after having a third of my liver removed, didnt realise I was preg until i was seven weeks as I thought I wasnt recovering well from the op. Maybe my body needs to be under the weather to fall preg.
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