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Just a reminder to all: all LTers love seeing a fellow LTer achieve that longed-for BFP, and we all find hope in one of our own having success in this difficult journey. But please remember that there are those who cycled with you who may not have received good news at the end of their cycle. Please do not post baby/child/pg tickers or pg related signatures (eg blinking BFP icons) etc in this forum out of respect for them.
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im here. dont know how to write any of this without crying. Have just spent two nights in hospital heavily sedated for pain and panic attacks. At Day 3 we had 9 embryos at 6-8 cell, with 4 just lagging behind. This is after having 33 eggs at EPU. At Day 5 we had none. No blastocysts. No embryos. They checked again on day 6 to make sure that none had caught up but there was no growth.
I just went through the most agonising experience - again - for nothing.
Bec, i am sorry sorry for your recent news, I dont know what to say. I guess they have let you out of hospital now, but you will still need to rest and recover.
Can i ask what dose of stims they are putting you on? colleting so many is not working for you (or anyone really as there are many risks) have you had a follow up with your FS to discuss your concerns?
Thinking of you tonight, i know that doesnt help heal, but please take it easy.
Loula - I was on 225iu gonal-f and was using orgalutran to prevent ovulation. My body responds very differently each time, last time i had severe ohss with 20 eggs, this time no ohss with 33 eggs but bad pain in diaphram from the egg collection. my ovaries were huge - three times normal size, and the clinic are confused about how i respond to treatment. I think we are done. I really believe so, we dont have any cash/credit left, and i couldnt handle another disappointment like this.
Am out of hospital and back to work, i have exhausted all my sick leave so have to be here.
My depression has come back with a vengeance and Im not feeling well, so I am trying my best to just keep going with everything. I cant think about IVF or babies or anything right now, it hurts too much.
Have an appt with embryologist and specialist for three weeks to find out what happened. Until then, who knows...
oh bec i am so so sorry, it must be so hard to be back at work aswell, it sounds like you still need sometime at home to deal with what happend with your cycle. its so devastating to put so much into a cycle and to go all the way to EPU and to have nothing to show for it, life is so unfair sometimes
is there anyone you could talk to about things? does your clinic offer a councilor (sp?) maybe sitting down and talking to someone might help? if it feels like your depression has come back it might be a good idea to talk and you know that you are more then welcome to come on here and talk to us girls. if talking doesnt help with your depression then maybe going to see your GP , he might be able to offer you some anti-depresents (sp?). you have been through so much in the last few weeks and it sounds like its all starting to catch up with you, i wish i was there right now to give you a big hug and a shoulder to cry on, if you need anything feel free to PM me at anytime
ladies, just re trying the old fashioned way, miracles do happen...DH and I had a miracle conception after being told chances were very very slim...I miscarried, but we now know I had the antiphospholipid syndrome etc etc which was causing me problems. So you just never know!
Edie- to be frank, our sex life has taken a downward spiral since IVF, miscarriages etc...and is definately not as relaxed as it used to be, especially when the focus is on TTC still. I think it does happen.
Bec I feel your pain. I haven't experienced the exact same thing but I do know what it's like to go through all the steps to only end in heartache. My first IVF cycle went better than we expected. They retrieved 24 eggs, 16 were fertilized, we froze 7 day three's and 2 blasties. We transfered one high quality blastie which split resulting in a identical twin conception. At 24 weeks I went into preterm labor, my boys fought to stay with us after coming into the world but just couldn't do it. It was hard leaving the hospital empty handed. We are currently in our first FET cycle. I'm more nervous on receiving a BFP than a BFN. For obvious reasons. Oh and it turns out my cervix is incompetent and I have a blood clotting disorder. So now I have been marked as high risk. Next pregnancy they will be stitching my cervix between week 14&16 to ensure I pass the second trimester.
We all need to stay strong and hopeful that one day soon we all will have that BFP and be able to take them home.
toby congratulations honey, hope all went perfectly with the bt xxxx
Infinity, thank you for your kind words lovey, I hope you're travelling well, I know exactly what you mean about distancing yourself from it all.
BecD that you get your miracle xxxx
Loula am sending you love, strength and hope, take care of yourself & let us know how you're travelling.
love & hugs to everyone else
AFM, haven't had the best of weeks but have felt less overwhelmed by the sorrow. My darling angel left us 4 years ago tommorow and since then we've been on such an incredible journey. Thank you all for your love & support, it means so much to me xxx
anyos sending you lots of cyber hugs. Must be a very hard week for you indeed.
Well had my FET yesterday afternoon so now have two embies on board. BT 6th November. Just have to try and stay sane and not think too much about it till next Friday.
Oh Bec - I am so sorry to hear this - how devastating. This journey is very, very cruel at times. I do agree that it is time to talk to your FS about going for fewer eggs. Also, do they know why they didn't make it to blast? Please take care of yourself - you have been through so much physically and emotionally.
I'm truely very sorry to hear of your news Bec. I know how heartbreaking and unfair not getting to TF is, it's very harsh.
Please look after yourself, this journey is so taxing it's important to take time to grieve and heal.
I'm thinking of you
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My thoughts and prayers are with you. xx
that you get your miracle xxxx
thinking of you today too hunni, I can't imagine how hard this day must be for you. Take care 
hoping your BT results are nice and high 
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to infinity, WLAB, Grayson, Loula, toby, Paula, Possums, airline, hope your all well 
to you all.
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