Long Term Assisted Conception - 2009 #4

Hi all your lovely ladies, I have been so slack posting lately :redface: and thanks for all your good wishes and thinking of me...you are just so so sweet!

Infinity, wow, what a great result! Try not to think too far ahead to get yourself worried. I got 12 eggs this cycle, way too many than I would anticipated. On Day 1 fert report, there are 9 out of 12 mature and 5 fertilized. Also the E2 level prior to EPU would have a true indication of how many mature eggs you've got. Like 1000 equals one mature egg, so if your are like 8000-9000, it will more likely to be 9 mature eggs. This is what I learn from my past cycles, so far, they are making sense. But let me know how you go...You have a great number to start with, I hope you ended up with lots of blasties. :)

Anyos, :goodluck: and everything is crossed for you! Are you going to POAS?

BecD, have a great holiday and I think it will do world of good for the next cycle.

Dutchie, so glad you've got all the plan laid ahead and seems you are knocking off all the potential obsticle and it will be a bright clear way to get your BFP! Meanwhile, enjoy the time off!

Of course a big congratulations to Holly and hope that will be just be a start of a string of BFPs in this thread!

:hello: to Loula, WLAB, Ms Pink and anyone who is lurking...

:hello: girls,
well i havent been in for a while now been very slack but im here now and just wanted to let all you girls know i always still think of you in here and pray someday very soon you will all get your bfp, i know how hard this journey can be hang in there girls and take care hope to see some pg announcments soon.
keep plodding girls.

Hello!

Dutchie - you are a dag! 'Eggcellent' - that is what DH and I call a 'Dad' joke - maybe you are UTD so it's a 'mum' joke from you.

anyos - not so sore today thank goodness. hoping your sore BB's and nausea are what we all want it to be x

BecD - thanks for the wishes, they are much appreciated. xx We are growing to blast for the first time this cycle. enjoy your 'dirty' holiday you lucky thing.

Smithy - thanks for dropping in and thinking of us. take care of yourself and the little miss you are baking.

cuddlepie - hope your wait is going well. :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: thanks for the info, I'm trying not to think too far ahead and take one day at a time but as you all know it's soooo hard.

AFM - fert report this morning is 11 embryos all looking really good. All going well we will transfer a single blasty on Saturday. This is the first time we've grown to blast, so hoping at least one of them makes it that far. Have to start crinone tonight - so ewww, that stuff is gross.

hello to everyone else, hoping with everything I have in me that we get some BFP's in here in the coming weeks. xxx

Hi girls,

Smithy- thanks for dropping in and always thinking of us lovey, your a real gem!

infinity- wow 11, that's such a fantastic result. BOL for ET on Saturday.

CPie- Hop your TWW is flying and treating you kind. Sending you a bunch of the stickiest sticky vibes.

Hello to all the other lovely gals, anyos, BecD, WLAB, toby and Loula and anyone who may be lurking.

Great result Infinity...

Goodluck for tomorrow.....

Hi everyone...have a gorgeous long weekend.... yippeeeeeeeeeeee.....

hey girls,

I started spotting yesterday and had a bt this morning which came back negative. Not surprised, didn't feel right, no symptoms this week :( Looking forward to a month off and then will decide if we do another round.

Infinity, Dutchie, Cuddlepie thinking of you all :bluedust:

xx

Massive hugs Anyos...take a good break and try not to think too far ahead. I am sure the decision will come to you when timing is right....at least its weekend soon and you can be surrounded by loved ones...

Infinity, that's a great result with 11 fertilized. I hope they are growing nicely and by Saturday you will have 1 blastocyst transferred and a few to be frozen. Looking forward to the update.

Dutchie, how are you going chicke?

AFM, this part of TWW really sucks and I just felt so negative this morning when a few cramps coming on. I didn't even have the heart to go into TWW thread, I just want to hide in here and my journals and get over this weekend. I am hanging out for the weekend, this week just seems the world's longest week EVER!

thanks cuddlepie am looking forward to have a break and a few glasses of vino :)

When do you have your bt? TWW is so hard and maintaining a optimistic outlook through it all is near impossible! Hang in there lovey xx

Oh no anyos ((hugehugs)) I'm so sorry this wasn't your month, I was really, really hoping for you. Enjoy your month off and the vino ;)

CPIe- Sorry to hear your TWW is not being so kind to you. Remember just because you are feeling negative doesn't mean that this isn't going to work. ((huge hugs)) to you too.

infinity- BOL for ET tomorrow, hope you have a lovely blast to TF and a few for the freezer.

Hello to everone else, hope things are well.

AFM- Still waiting for AF, not really sure what to think but I guess I'll know soon enough.

anyos - I'm sorry AF arrived, so dissappointing. Big hugs to you. x Hoping your month break allows you to make some decisions.

Ms Pink - thanks for the well wishes, hope you are doing well.

Cuddlepie - you're getting there, not too long to go now - even though it feels like an eternity. I am feeling very positive for you this time - chucking you more :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:!

Dutchie - I just read in another thread that AF arrived for you too. So so sorry. big hugs to you too. It's just not fair.

Hello to all the other lovely ladies that post in here.

AFM - transfered one great looking blasty - the Lab lady said it was beautiful, I was so proud. Transfer was fine, easy with no issues - no cramping immediately after and no blood (which have happened in the past). Had some lunch and am now going to lie around all weekend long. All I'm doing this time around is taking my elevit, using crinone, and not eating the things listed in the Listeria pamphlet. I'm gonna try relax this time and what will be will be - feel free to remind me I said this when I come back in here in a few days venting and raving like a mad woman, or being the queen of negativity!! Don't think I'll post in the TWW thread, just stay in here I think and drive you lot mad instead. Oh - BT is 14/10 (so 11 day wait really - hooray) and we had 5 blasties to freeze and 4 slower ones still hanging in there - they'll watch these today so we might have another 1 or 2 to freeze also. Overall, great result so far. Thanks so much everyone for your support and well wishes so far. :grouphug:

infinity- yahooo for being pupo, sending you many of the stickiest sticky vibes. Very best of luck for your BT.
Your results have been great this cycle, I'd certainly be very happy with them aswell. 5 frosty bubs is fantastic and hopefully you'll have a couple more to freeze too.

sorry girls just had to wish infinity many sticky vibes good luk :pray:

woohoo infinity - will be thinking of you during the 2ww. 5 blasts to freeze is amazing!!!

Well I am back from holiday and AF held off until today! Not that it did my dear hubby any good - he didnt get any! Holiday was great, but tiring also - never fly with tiger! flight got changed without telling us - not fun at all.

So AF has arrived, will go in tomorrow morning for blood and scan. Want to go straight into this ivf, but am concerned that I havent lost the weight they wanted me to lose, so they might not start me this month - which i will be very angry and vocal about if they stop me! But you know me, preparing for the worst as usual.

Morning,

Dutchie - I forgot I'm officially PUPO! thanks for reminding me. x How are you doing?

Smithy - thanks for dropping by to wish me luck - so sweet and much appreciated.

BecD - welcome home. Poor you and hubby not having a 'dirty' holiday - but hope it was a nice break all the same lol. Hope bloods and scan went ok this morning - hopefully your weight isn't an issue and they let you get started. Please let us know how you go. I don't know too much about PCOS but can't it be extremely difficult to lose weight when you have it - it's a bit out of your control isn't it? Not fair if they don't let you start this IVF round because of it. my fingers are crossed for good news for you today.

Hello to everyone else.

AFM - pretty relaxed still (wondering how long this will last - lol) Having some very slight AF type cramping this morning on and off - could be my imagination, could just be the crinone. Too early to get hopeful about anything just yet. Weird dreams last night too - don't know if anyone watches 'skins' but in my dream Syd from skins wouldn't sleep with me and I was so upset! as i said weird....

Ladies im so sorry i have still been MIA! will try to get on and read through to see where everyone is at in this next week,......when DH gets of playing FB poker! (on my account)

I know some of you are in your TWW and i pray that they are filled with love and joy at the end, you are all in my thoughts xx

Hi guys,

Just quickly dropping by to send some :hug: and :stickyvibesboy: to CP. Came back yesterday froma holiday in Europe and have now started to write an ad for a donor angel, wish me luck.

:bluedust: to all of you

Sara

Loula, thanks for thinking of us and your lovely prayers. Much appreciated.

Sara - hello! Best of luck with finding your donor angel, hope it happens for you soon.

AFM: Woke up yesterday morning feeling very depressed and negative - like I know I am not pregnant. It's so hard to fight those feelings. Every FET I had has been the same - I wake up about DPO 7 or 8 and just know - and I've been right every time. Was very emotional yesterday, was a really bad day. Feeling better today but still not as hopeful as I'd like. If I POAS tomorrow (DPO10) is there anything that could affect the result, I'm only on crinone and my trigger was 12 days ago? It may be too early still?? Thanks for listening.

Hello to everyone else, hope you're all doing well.

Thanks Sara for poping in...and :hello: to everyone...

Well, some of you may have read my blog, there is no miracle this time round for me...AF is still yet to show but I tested again today at DPO14 and it was a BFN...so will have to think of the next step...

Infinity, I know that feeling so well of feeling negative...but its still early days, if you haven't had any pregnyl, you can certainly test because crinone won't affect the result. Just be prepared though, a lot of BFP won't show until DPO13/14 though....the next few days is going to be hard (just by my own experience) but come in and we are all here for you....sending you loads of :stickyvibesboy:

Cuddlepie :comfort: I hope you're ok, am so sorry to hear the news. I hope the next cycle brings you your little miracle xxxxx

Infinity :hug: I know how hard it can be before you can officially test, but as CP said, its early days yet. We're all thinking of you and sending you :bluedust:

AFM have added chinese herbs to my neverending list of supplements and am seeing Jane Lyttleton from Accupuncture IVF. I think I've reached the "lets see a physic" stage....

Big hugs to my friend CP.... :hug:

Just thought i would pop in here yet again as i am about to start a FET cycle.

I had a hysteroscopy and D & C last Friday. Hysteroscopy showed that all looks fine inside no sign of anything that shouldnt be there and now waiting for the results of the endometrial biopsy, which i should get tomorrow. AF showed up this arvo so i will be counting tomorrow as day 1.

Looking forward to catching up with you all.

Cuddlepie so sorry to hear. :hug: It doesnt get any easier does it?! Stay strong and look after yourself.

Really, really bummed for you CPie, so sorry to hear this wasn't your time. Please take care of yourself and I'll be thinking of you :hug:

Hello to Sara, I hope you find your donor angel soon.

:hello: to all others, hope things are well.

Hello ladies,

Cuddlepie - again, so very sorry, my heart goes out to you. Best of luck with whatever your future plans may be. xx

Anyos, good luck with the herbs, must take you ages everyday taking everything you do - at least you are giving it your absolute best. Hoping they do the trick. I've seen two psychics - one said I'd have my first child at 28 - wrong! The more recent one said someone on the otherside (my cat!!) had a message for me - the message was "you'll have to crack a few eggs before you get the right one" - I cried and cried after this. Don't think I'll see anymore pyschics - lol

Paula - hi, Best of luck with this FET cycle. Glad the hyst showed no issues. Looking forward to hearing from you.

AFM: didn't POAS this morning, chickened out and just couldn't bear to see the BFN, besides you guys are right, it's probably too early. No symptoms, still feeling quite negative. Think I will hold out until Monday to POAS - af will probably have started to arrive by then. I'm also throwing a baby shower on Sunday for my little sister, which is going to be hard enough without knowing for sure it's a bfn. My transfers always seem to be timed perfectly to ruin special events for me *sigh*. Apologies for being so down, I'm sure you all understand, thanks again for listening and the support.

Much love to all. xxxx

Hi Infinity

I am a very sporadic poster at the moment so I hope you don't mind me jumping in when we don't know each other. I just wanted to say that in this business I am not convinced anymore that we can really trust our negative 'I just know I'm not pregnant' feelings. I promise you that you could absolutely be pg no matter how strong your negative convictions are. I am not sure that those feelings mean anything in the face of ivf and conception. Of course I may be wrong, but I got pg once and my neg feelings were so so so awful and strong that cycle that I wanted to drive off a bridge. It was terrible. And all along I was pg. Can I ask you to hang in and go easy on yourself. I am sorry you have to do it this way but when you have your little bub in your arms it will all have been worth it. You are very brave and one day you can tell your bub how much you were willing to go through just to hold them in your arms.

All the very best. Hang in.

x Edie

hey Infinity, I know the wait is hard and especially since you have a babyshower this sunday, but hang in there! Yes, it does take me forever to take ALL the supplements, thank god I work from home :) Will be thinking of you on Sunday xxxx

hope everyone else is well xx

AFM it a hard month for us, our daughters birthday/anniversary is coming up in two weeks, she would have been turning four and my heart still aches for her. So I'm not thinking about pregnancy, ovulation, temps etc, a little time off is definitely called for.

infinity when are you due to test? How are you feeling at the moment?

anyos so sorry to hear about your daughter. I bet this month will forever hold a very special place in your heart. :hug: Enjoy your time off.

Dr called me late last night to let me know that the results from the endometrial biopsy were all normal so all looking good. My babys 9 month rental is all clean and healthy now just have to hope it wants to move in. Please bubby, move in and make yourself at home for 9 months :D

Hi everyone,

Edie - thank-you so much for dropping in just to send me some support. I really appreciate it and you must be an amazingly compassionate caring woman to do such a thing for someone you don't even know. So thanks again, your words made me cry but in a good way. I'm trying to be more positive and you've given me a bit of hope back.

Anyos, happy birthday to your beautiful precious angel. I cannot even imagine your pain right now. Sending you much strength to get through this month. xxx

Paula - my BT is Wednesday but I'll test Monday I think. I hope your bubby hears your womb for rent add and moves on in! "Please Paula's bubby, the inspection report is all clear and just waiting for you to move on in, there's an awesome Mummy bonus at the end of the 9 month period as extra incentive!"

AFM: been very busy today and trying not to think about things too much. Feeling a little more hopeful after all the wonderful support.

Much love to everyone else. Have a great weekend. xxx

Hi Infinity,

Just dropping in to send you some :stickyvibesgirl:

Also have question for a friend is anyone here from Adelaide? Do you know a good clinic there? She doesn't like Flinders much where she had a treatment done.

Thanks heaps,

Sara

Hi everyone

infinity- Glad to hear your feeling a lil' brighter, very best of luck for testing monday. Sending you some of the stickiest sticky vibes too.

Paula- Glad to hear you have the all clear, that's always a relief. Wishing you the best.

anyos- So very sorry about your daughter, so heartbreaking. A break sounds like a good idea, I hope you are able to do something special with DH for her anniversary. I'm thinking of you.

Hello to everyone else reading and lurking :hello:

Dutchie, Paula, Infinity, thank you for your kind words :hug:

Infinity, how are you going? Best of luck for today xxx

Hello to everyone else, sending lots of :bluedust: to you all xxx

Selfish post coming up..........

POAS this morning - after about 3 minutes it was stark white next to the control line, two more minutes and there is the faintest of faint lines there. So faint you can barely see it, in fact I'm not sure if it's sort of a reflection of the control line or some weird evaporation line. Not sure what to think. You can barely see it at arms length. I've completely torn the test apart and pulled the testing stip out!

Not holding out too much hope but it has ignited a small spark. I don't think I can function for the next two days!!!!

Please please please universe let this be the start of something wonderful.

Hi Ladies.

Infinity - did you get a bt today? im really hoping you got a BFP
anyos - thinking of you at this time
Edie - thanks for your post. I need reminding that thourghts have nothing to do with it
paula- great to hear about your results
cp - im sorry to hear there was no BFP this month

Hello everyone else!!!

AFM - o-ed day 21 transfer (5 day blast) tomorrow. Not very positive about it at all as I usually o day 18/19 and get the witch 9/10 days later. I told the FS & nurse this information-the fs did not believe me (apparently everyone o on day 14 - go figure) and the nurse told me today that we should just wait and see. If my calculations are correct - AF should show up this weekend by the latest! So is there time for the blasty to stick? The nurse i spoke to last week said yes there was time to stick.

Anyone know of any success stories or been in the same situation?

I'm so damn axious - i took today off. Im also worried the blasty wont survive the thaw (i only have 2 left) the nurse said the thaw success rate was 80-90% which made me feel a bit more better.

thanks for reading

woohoo Infinity sounding so promising xx Best wishes for the next two days hun

Hi Infinity

I am so glad I could help. I have been there too - being so sure of the absolute worst - and being wrong. Woo hoo what a day that was. My whole world expanded and I realized it wasn't going to be limited by my fears.

I am rooting for you girl, I can't wait to hear more about your double line. You can do this - it doesn't matter if it gets rough, you can do it. You go girl.

x Edie

Anyos I am sorry for your loss - it must be a painful time to manage. My heart goes out to you. I will send some cyber-love. Will you accept it from a virtual cyber stranger? xxxxxx

Toby, I am sure your blasty will survive the thaw. It will probably get a buzz out of getting warm. Lots of luck for Toby's brave blasty.

AFM I am currently down-regulating and have been on the pill for three weeks. Uch. I feel achey. Other than that, not too bad. Amazing that a whole year has gone by and I am still doing ivf. How did that happen? Nothing could have prepared me...and yet I am getting on with things, creative work, exercise, looking after our dogs, being with friends...it's all ok. EPU scheduled for around the 30th of October.

x Edie

Toby, best of luck for transfer today, hoping your blasty survived the thaw and you transfer with no problems. There is definately time for your blasty to stick, Good luck and I'll be crossing everything for you.

Loula - thanks for the wishes - much appreciated

Edie - thanks again. I hope I can do this too but things are not looking good. I am the same as you - couldn't quite beleive that we'd been doing IVF for over a year - time flies even when you aren;t having any fun. You sound like you are doing so well. looking forward to hearing about your progress.

AFM: things are not looking good. POAS again this morning and there is still a second line but still faint - not as faint as yesterday but not really dark enough. And I'm spotting or something - TMI but it's browny red and mucusy - very much like the normal start of my AF. Am also cramping and have a bad lower back ache. Have not told DH about the possible positive tests or the spotting/bleeding. It breaks my heart to get his hopes up if only to be let down again - can't do it just yet. BT is tomorrow so I'll wait it out. Am expecting that maybe this is a chemical pregnancy.

Hello to everyone else, hope all is well.

Toby & Edie, thank you for your lovely words. I'm so grateful to have an amazing group of virtual friends here, it means so much to me xxxx

Infinity, :hug: Am praying for you lovey and I hope its just implantation spotting. Unfortunately sometimes the symptoms for AF & pregnancy are so similar its almost impossible to tell the difference. Look after yourself, we're all thinking of you xxxx

Toby, best of luck today, will be thinking of you.

Dutchie, how are you going?

AFM have been busy with work and family. Due to O this week and will be trying the old-fashioned way!

Dutchie - How did you go with MT ?

Anyos - BOL with the ol' fashioned way

Infinity - You are certainly on a roller coaster, if I where you, I would have gone to a GP and had a Beta hcg at the first sign of two lines, then you would of had a number to compare it too, two days later with the clinics Beta, it just moves the process along a bit. Can you tell I am impatient !!!
BOL, with tommorow's BT, I hope the universe listenes to you

Edie - I know what you mean about the time flying

Loula - Thinking of u hun, and looking forward to a chat

Bulliej, Sara, CPie, Ms Pink - my ol' friends, miss our chats, and hope you are all well, I know where your at, Im just taking day by day myself, trying my best not to think abour\t ttc

Anyos I am glad we could help in any small way at all. It sounds like you are getting on with things - distraction seems to be the best way to deal with this process - don't you think? I mean I have done everything - prayed fervently, focused on it, been positive, been negative, done creative visualizations, written letters to God, not focused on it, been angry, been indignant, begged and bargained - I am not sure what difference any of it makes. I have come to think that if I just get on with life, enjoy myself, do what I have to do - gonal, multi-vits, acupuncture, whatever, but no extra-mileage in my mind - it will work just as well. I feel positive. Mostly because I am focusing on my work and just not going there - know what I mean?

Infinity, hang in. You will get there, you will have another baby. You are in the most agonising bit but it will pass and you will reach your goal. I am sorry about the mixed messages, AF, cramps etc the only solution is to wait which brings me back to distraction. Is there anything else you can do? Anything at all, retail therapy, movies, mates, a massage - anything at all. Whatever works - even if its watching re-runs of Sex and the City. Go for it.

Good luck hun x Edie

infinity..hang in there , it's such an up and down time of emotions

anyos...sending you all the very best, during what must be a really hard time. good luck with this cycle!

everyone else, I know I am not really chatting on here much at the moment, but I do check in from time to time to check on you all and I so hope for more BFPs soon and for these difficult paths you are on to finally bring the best reward ...a healthy baby of your own to love. Saying a big hello to you all.

afm- managing the Graves disease /hyperthyroidism with medication and feeling better, weekly blood tests while i try and balance the medication etc. Off to see an endocrinologist in a couple of weeks to map out the next step fertility wise (cant take this medication i am on in pregnancy or ttc)...and to talk about options, other medication, surgery etc. So we are on an enforced complete TTC break, which is why i am not on here so much at the moment. We are hoping we can resume naturally trying in coming months, or in the new year...and if no luck by may/june will resume IVF, well that's the current idea anyway, depending on the outcome from the endocrinologist etc.