Well the news isn't great. 16 out of the 18 eggs were mature but only 7 fertilized and apparently they aren't looking great. I'm now having the transfer this afternoon as they are worried none will make it to blastocyst stage.
My parents have paid for me and my 13 year old daughter to join them in Qld tomorrow for almost a week as I was feeling really depressed after speaking to the lab. I asked my clinic how soon I could fly afterwards and they said there were no restrictions so I hope thats right and it won't effect the outcome... though I'm feeling very negative about it all now.
Luckily the OHS has settled a bit (I've lost 500 grams each day for the past 2 days so the clinic said that is a good sign). I'm feeling alot better - no nausea and only a bit sore.
They have agreed to transfer 2 embryos this time (normally they only do 1 but I think they have agreed to 2 since they aren't great anyway).
Feeling very down... trying to stay positive but it's hard. I think this will be my last attempt (I had planned on one more after this but I just don't think I can do it again... this cycle was so much worse than the first one).
The only thing is I don't know what to do if I don't try again. For the past 4 years trying to get pregnant has been pretty much a factor in every decision I have made - including buying my farm... and I don't know where it leaves me if I give up...
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