Oh Bee Bee ... I am so sorry my darling .... I know what you mean about being attached to it, when i had my period after failed IVF cycle i cried when i saw the grey type tissue that came out as i knew it was our bubs. Stay strong sweetie and i am sorry that you didn't get your christmas wish, but I am sure there is a pleasant suprise just around the corner..

love and hugs to you

leis xx :smt058