was very tempted to poas this morning, but now glad i didnt as i absolutely feel that af is on her way.. oh well...

Tam - big WooHoo on your holiday sweetheart! - you should talk to Sush, she is heading over there too. Know what you mean about feeling llike stopping altogether. Lately I have had some peace with that thought... which s really strange for me because Im not one to be pesimistic or lose hope, or give up, but I dont really feel like it is giving up as such - more just dealing with what we have IYKWIM? But I know in my heart I cannot leave those 2 snowbubbies... so I have that to go and then I will see...