what a lovely reply suby - it breaks my heart to hear stories like yours, and in other ways, it makes me realise I am not alone on this journey to have another baby. Some say 'well at least you have one' - and yes, true. But it is just as heartbreaking not to be able to concieve the second time, because like you, I really want this for my son who is already 4 and half and just LOVES babies.

that is very interesting that you mention trauma possible cause of adenomyosis...I just wish it could be fixed by a magic wand for both of us!!

You are going through so much - and I understand why your running got sidetracked with pregnancy, then p/n depression, miscarriage and cancer....... oh, how much more can happen to someone? Please know that I am here on this forum if you ever need to talk.
I hope you take some time out for yourself to do other forms of excercise, yoga or hobbies daily........I think this is so important.

thank you for your good wishes. we are going on a little holiday for a week so I will check back next week.
Huge hugs to you. Keep close to those who love you....how old is your little girl?