Shazz - ahhh advise.

Your experience has been different to mine. Very sorry for your loss.

But......I have been down the ivf road MANY times and have bruises to show for it. I could only do IVF if I focused on it and shed other things. Take one day at a time, give yourself space to deal with each little hurdle (E2 not rising yet, lining not thickening yet). Take "stock" of your life pre-IVF, if you bring a child into your life make sure that it is a good life in terms of relationships, how you feel about yourself etc etc. You can only do your best, don't beat yourself up over failures. At the end of the "day" you are the only person answerable for your life, live it without regrets.