Hi lovely ladies, thanks so much for your responses. OMG it is so hard and my heart goes out to you all, hope you stay strong and positive and which ever way you choose is the right one for you. I will have a really good think about this, see how I go and maybe book in to see the counsellor. I asked my FS today what his thoughts were about IVF and anti depressants and he said he is not too keen on mixing the drugs, but would be best if I saw the counsellor for her to diagnose whether I have depression. I certainly feel depressed quite a lot, but I don't know if I would say I have 'depression', if this makes sense. Oh this is all just so hard. I have a plan now for my next cycle, and I guess this is giving me something to work towards, and it is so much better than this endless waiting and not doing anything. I really thought I could handle a wait, take a break and not think about it, but that has so 'not' happened. So back on the rollercoaster as soon as I can. Thanks again for your thoughts, big hugs xx