Anyone else scared of finding out?

[toomanyshoes]

So long story short lots of TTC, lots of M/C's, etc etc etc. So I'm at a point where we need to have things looked at, the GP agrees, said he wanted me to have an x ray for another problem first then we would talk about FS.

well....that was two months ago and I still haven't made myself an appointment!

I'm scared of finding out something IS wrong...I would kinda rather not know and go on like we are...I don't know how to explain it properly or if it even makes sense I'm sure any normal person would want all the answers!

I'm frustrated its not happening but I'm totally crapping my pants at the thought of knowing something is wrong.

Sorry just venting to keep my sanity!

[Bumperstump Cummerbund]

Completely understandable

It is so much easier to deal with realities though, rather than what MIGHT be. Good luck hun

[Ahurani]

I was scared to find out but I wanted something to be wrong in a way so I could do something about it :/

make the appt hun, it'll be for the best

[*Nikki*]

I was in the same boat a couple of years ago... i was scared to find out if something was wrong but after 2 years ttc at that time i knew i had to find answers and figured its best to know if something is wrong so it can be fixed or move in another dirextion iykw
to you

xox

[MissM]

HI there too many shoes,

First of all to you, it is hard.

We are reaching our 12 month mark shortly (1.5 yrs of not preventing) and I have to admist, it is frightening. In 2 months we will be seeing our GP for a referral.

How did you go with your appointment?

Hope it all went well!

[CharlieBrownGirl]

*puts up hand*
Over 12 months of TTC and nothing happening, it scares me that I may never be a Mum.

I had the blood test the other day for Ovarian Health and I had the strangest feeling that the Doctor is going to tell me bad news when I go in for the results.

I have seen a Kinesiologist and in her words "your body isn't ready for a baby, why are you in such a rush for?"

Why isn't my body ready? Fark! I hate having no control.

The unknown is a scary place to be.

Sprinkling lots of baby dust your way toomanyshoes. Wishing you all the best for a bfp.

[PumpkinZulu]

I completely understand what you mean toomanyshoes (great name btw, although you can never have too many hehe ) My only advice is what Berenice already said; it's easier to deal with the here and now than with all the 'what ifs' in life. The possibility of finding out something is wrong is scary, you're right, but to me, the possibility that I may have something wrong, something minor that is easy to fix and it not getting treated because I'm too scared to find out about it, and all the time I'll waste, and all the m/c I'd endure, just because I was too scared to find out...that frightens me more.

We have been ttc for 17 months now. I have known pretty much since month 4 (and second m/c) that there was *something* wrong. By month 12 (and m/c 3 & 4) I was convinced. We have since found out that df's sperm is abnormal. My cycles have varied from relatively short 26 days, to my current cycle which is cd 60 today...and I still haven't ovulated yet. Once this cycle is over, I will be in the all clear to have a hycosy to see if my tubes are blocked, and then a laparoscopy and hysteroscopy. It is a really great feeling to finally have a fs and to be doing something really proactive about ttc. The unknown is frightening, but it's a leap we all have to take. Goodluck

[toomanyshoes]

thanks ladies

Well my birthday came and went...no appointment...honestly just not ready to find out something is wrong so blindly going to keep trying until the new year.

[onthefly]

I know it's scary, but the unknown is generally more frightening than the known.
I don't mean for this to sound harsh or uncaring, but I think, at this point, you already know that something isn't right
The next step is yours and if you're not ready, that's fair enough. We'll be here when you do seek answers though.
Good luck with everything

[PumpkinZulu]

I know it's scary, but the unknown is generally more frightening than the known.
I don't mean for this to sound harsh or uncaring, but I think, at this point, you already know that something isn't right
The next step is yours and if you're not ready, that's fair enough. We'll be here when you do seek answers though.
Good luck with everything

Beautifully said!

I was where you were about 7 months ago hun. What pushed me over that point was the thought that maybe all the m/c's I was having could be prevented, and possibly very easily, and that I couldn't bare the thought of losing any more babies for fear of the unknown. Like marcellus said, we'll all be here when you're ready

[toomanyshoes]

Well we saw our GP and now have a referral to a fertility specialist, she didn't even want to order any tests because of the fact we already have kids and have been trying so long so thought it would just be a waste of time and should go straight to the specialist.

Appointment is on Tuesday, scared, worried, thinking the worst!

[CharlieBrownGirl]

That's a step in the right direction, seeing the fertility specialist.
Hope the FS can provide answers.
Just think you're a step closer to your bfp.

The worst part is the unknown, but knowledge is power.

I have faith you'll be okay. Take care