Jane, I sooooooo understand where you are coming from.

I too had ENDO and PCOS. I had to do 2 laps. Go on all this medication for close to 2 years that was recommended by my gyno. Mid cycle pain EVERY single month without fail I would be bedridden for 3/4 days. It was becoming a joke cause it was like "anything else want to happen to me"!?!?!

Finally went to see a IVF specialist. Well, low and behold my DH has low sperm count and motility. I can tell you, it knocked me for a 6! In a way I couldn't believe what I was hearing and started to get really upset but then on the other hand.. I felt like...phew...it's not ALL me afterall.. I don't feel like the one and only failure!!

As soon as we got told this, I didn't want to try anymore. I felt like I was wasting my time. Doing all the tricks from lying down for an hour, putting your legs up for half an hour, put a pillow under your back etc etc we all know how emotionally and mentally exhausting it is. And I wasn't prepared for the wicked witch to rear its ugly head every month cause that was the BIGGEST let down of all.

So.....

My specialist told me, we can fix sperm. It's the womans eggs that we need. So don't worry about your hubbys sperm because they can clean it and get them ready. Just pray that you ovulate enough to produce eggs. So I was praying like it was going out of fashion. Thankfully I did and produced eggs. I now have my transfer organised for next month.

I only wish I thought about IVF 3 years ago. But I guess everything happens for a reason..

Miracles do happen...so like angelique said, keep the faith as it will happen for you. The girls on here have helped me and brought a smile back to my face. They won't judge and will be your support system especially when you feel like people in your life have let you down.

I am here for you whenever you need to chat...xx