Hi Jane

My DH and I have been TTC no 1 for 2 years now. I knew I had PCOS but hadn't been diagnosed by a doctor. I had researched it and thought yes I do have PCOS but i also thought i had endo as well! After 12 months of no success i was referred to a fantastic gynie who did all the tests on me and DH. DH's sperm came back with slightly low motility. I was so upset and I remember we where suppose to have friends around that night for dinner with their 3 month old baby and I cancelled as i couldn't bare the pain of seeing their child. Another 12 months down the track, with 6 rounds of clomid, nil success, one unsuccesful IVF attempt and no frosties in the freezer, and finally a lap/hyst and D&C it has finally been confirmed that i have extremely unusual endo. My gynie didn't remove it as it was to complex, so i am going back into hospital in Feb to have it removed by Dr Michael Cooper Australias leading laprascopic surgeon. I sometimes feel frustrated that i should of had the lap done in the beginning. My doctor said initially that yes he would do a lap, but didn't think it was necessary to do it as he didn't think i had endo? AFter such a poor response from the IVF he decided that yes it was finally time to do that lap..... I remember waking up in recovery saying to the surgeon, 'so am i barron' and he laughing and said 'no not at all'

When DH and i were first TTC I would look at these websites and see all these fertility issues other woman had... and i would think 'thank God i don't have that wrong with me" Now i am one of these woman.. but yet there is always someone who is worse off.....

DH and I have really done the full circle now with TTC and we are back to square one. I know one day that we will hold our miracle, but like Ange said try and prepare your body for your pregnancy... believe in yourself and take care of your soul.....we are all here for you and when you need to vent your frustrations... type away... you will always get the support you need from around here!!!

Baby dust and Baby glue to you Jane, Santa has told me he has a sleigh full....

love and hugs

leis xxx