hey

just wondering how you all handle the guilt, the guilt of knowing your the reason why they dont have a child.

there is nothing stopping dp from walking away from all of this, and i wouldnt blame him if he did, hell it would make his life a whole lot easier not having to deal with the infertility that i have brought to this relationship. plus there would be alot less debt from all the procedures, less emotional strain, less worry and stress.

i have told him that i would never blame him if he wanted to go, and yet he is still here!!! why??????
i am worried that if he doesnt leave now, he will end up leaving a couple of years down the track cos of the want and need for a child of his own. so why not make it easier on us all and go now. i know i would feel better not having to deal with all of this guilt of not being able to give him a child.

I hate this, i hate what infertility is doing to me and my relationship and my confidence ( if i have any of that left) its not enough that i cant have a child, you have to destroy me and my relationship aswell.

for 6yrs and 11mnths i have put on a smile and held everything together, hoping and praying that one day it will work. now it seems that you have won, you have broken me infertility and i dont know how to get back up!!! i have no money to keep trying, i have no fight left in me to try and give dp a child or to give dd a sibling she so deperatley wants. instead i have this horrible guilt


dp loves me and he has been amazing through out all of this, and its that that makes it so hard, he so deserves this. its so unfair that he has to miss out on having a child because of me. so how do you handle knowing that the person you love the most, who you know would make the most amazing father cant have kids cos of you? it doesnt seem fair. doesnt the old saying go " if you love someone enough, set them free"?
i love him so much that i would rather leave him, so he can find someone new and have a child with. knowing that he would finally have a baby of his own would make me feel complete. and there would be no more guilt

sorry if none of this makes sense, i just feel so bad for him