Hey to all,

So im completely new to this type of thing and im not very sure as to what to say but ill take a stab in the dark.... (just to put everyone on the same page, i also suffer from depression/anxiety so this is a big thing for me to do)

My partner and i have been together for 6 years and with no luck in the baby department as yet, This time last year i got diagnosed with PCOS and it really shocked and scared me for a while there, you know thinking that i would never have a family of my own..... i mean i have the works... overweight, irregular periods, unwanted hair you name it, i have it.

So since then i have tried exercising my heart out/eating right plus i know this is going to sound crazy to most but i even set up a room in the house with baby items in it with my exercise equipment to keep me motivated, Which works well.
But what really gets to me is that ( i know this is going to sound sad or even hateful but its only true) family members and friends so happy with their newborns and children and i wonder why im not worthy, what have a done which makes me such a bad person that i shouldn't be blessed with having children. The toughest thing is that i have to congrats them and be happy for them in which i truly am but i just find it so hard to put on a smile and pretend everything is just fine. plus when i try to explain what im going through, they always say "you know, your only young, you have heaps of time for a family."
Its so crippling that i cant even hold my newborn niece because of it... silly i know.

Anyways i guess im hear to spill it all out because well my sister in law said it may help to find people out there which are battling the same battle.

Thank you for reading my story.