myturn - now I wish you lived close so I could give you a big . I know exactly how your feeling. I was almost at the end of my rope and I can tell you once you get your BFP its totally worth all the crying, feeling like ****, feeling like a failure and being poked, prodded and on display. If its still in you at all keep trying. Only you and your DH will know if its in you to keep going. Take care, cry, eat chocolate and give your DH lots of cuddles. xxxxxxxxx