Persephone, I get what you're saying. It can be a little off-putting having people looking down there, especially if it's something you haven't had to do very often. I also understand about the different sized speculums. I'm a "very small" make (sorry !) and my GP knows this when I go for my Paps but I find it quite uncomfortable when other Drs go straight for the Med or Large size and when I went for my ET FS only had a bigger one and then told me he wasn't able to lube it up which made it even worse, and then just after it was in he realised it wasn't quite right and had to twist it, well I nearly jumped thru the roof! So I hear ya!

But my trick here, I think of two things. I think that (1) This could very well lead me to the one thing I want more than anything else in the world so a few minutes of embarrassment and discomfort i worth it and (2) I think of my own mother. When I was born I was feet first my poor mother had not only the OB and Dad looking down there, but also 4 student Drs and a university lecturer!

I get what you mean about the "intimacy" part too, for me it's all a little too cold and clinical, not ever how I imagined myself trying to create a family, but hey let's just pray that we all get our BFPs soon so it makes it all worthwhile!

wishing everyone in the !