Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception April/May 2014

[Sarah4kurt13]

Big hugs thanks for your positive words juniper.
Would you consider going further with donated emby or such?

I think I would go the donor eggs as long as my partners sp. As long as I get a baby.
But it's hard to come to terms with it all!

Emma big hugs too it's bloody tuff, chems are the worst.
I feel like nut after having 8 now!
I'm the woman who cried pregnant! Instead of wolf lol.
Have you got any good embies yet using pgd?
How many rounds?

What a ride!

[Emma09]

We had 1 good out of 9 last cycle :-(
That was our first PGD.
Starting another cycle now.... Really have my fingers crossed for better numbers!

[Sarah4kurt13]

1 out of nine gosh, who knew. I wonder how many of us on this tuff journey that haven't been Testing using pgd actually have such dud emby numbers ratios and we just don't know it!
I only had a dud cycle of 3 eggs last IVF we had! Prob all dud lol
The highest number I got was 8 eggs.

Strange thing for me is we mainly get a + hpt using ovulation induction/natural .

And ivf doesn't even get us a bfp. Only once briefly.

I really pray you get your golden emby next!
Expensive game.

[juniper76]

Sarah, yes, donor embryos are certainly an option for us. DH is okay with donor eggs, donor embryos and adoption (lol, all the expensive options!!). He's dead set against donor sperm (with my eggs), so that's the only option that's out for us. Our FS has recommended both donor eggs and donor sperm, so donor embryos is also a logical extension of those recommendations. Additionally, donor egg/embryo cycles can be done after menopause, so that takes some of the pressure off (given that I may have only a year or two before menopause).

Emma, keeping FX for you this cycle.

[Sarah4kurt13]

Oh that's good juniper :-) I'm glad you got options too.
I don't think my DF would even consider donor sperm either.
Gosh I'd hate to tally up how much we spend on this!
Lots and lots of saving! (debt too!)
I'm off to see FS on thurs to map another plan (yet again!)
I have decided us on our own with OI is not working lol

It's kinda good to know time frames can relax a little then!

I'm tired of feeling like a dried up ol lady of 36!! All I think when I see other women my age these days is I wonder if they got hardly any eggs left? Lol.
I used to be a blooming swimwear model before starting ttc and I don't look old yet! Sheesh.
Yeah that's my bruised ego I guess. It hits you this journey in every spot. I used to feel like I shined now my shine is kinda gone and I got to get some of it back!

40 is the new 30 they say these days! ... Nobody told my blooming eggs that! I see a lot of older mummies out there and a lot say it happend natural! All I think is please lend me your repro parts if you done then ha ha

Gosh I'm rambling.

Anyway, chin up and soldier on ladies
Healthy bubsy dust xxxxx

[juniper76]

Saturday 17 May 2014

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
CatyO - taking a break
Kel82 - taking a break
PositivelyGTC - taking a break
Jo_white - saving for IVF
Bestrong - waiting for AF
Glorious - ???
Amy_jellybean - ???
Sarah4kurt -
Juniper76 - CD10
1 More Please (Rai) - CD11
Miss.B - CD19
Emma09 - CD20
Nothing2lose - CD20
Joski - CD26


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here... https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...14-5-a-197228/)


Got their BFP in May


M.I.A. - We'd love to hear from you!
Ceejelz, Babycakes


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[worrywart]

Sarah, your spirit is just infectious!! You really make me laugh, and I am still quite down over my own miscarriage. I am really hoping and wishing for a healthy baby for you and Kurt . It just seems like a mystery, and such a cruel process. You were a swimwear model? Seriously? That is pretty great. Not something I can put on my own CV, thankfully for the public. Seriously, though, saying goodbye to your own genetics is a sad thing and a big step but I do know a few ladies who have their babies that way, with donor eggs or embryos and they are so happy. I am thinking about it too. It can feel overwhelming though.

Juniper, so your DH is opposed to mixing genetics? I do get that point of view, too. It is a really complex emotional area. Hold on a sec, I was just re-reading your post. So your DH opposes another man's sperm to be more precise. How do you feel about that?

Emma, that must be so so tough, the PGD. I have 7 stored embryos, generated through two IVF cycles, one a freeze-all. So we battled for those embryos. I am scared about PGD because I am scared about damaging an embryo that would have been good, and I am scared about facing that call (we have had similar calls with zero fert failed cycles) where they say they are all bad. But it is the next stop for us. Do you have any advice?

AFM, I am ok. I am pretty good today. Saw my newborn nephew and my brother & SIL and they were really kind and sensitive (helps when broader family not there). When I think about TTC, I don't have much hope TBH. Or rather I oscillate between ridiculous "I'll get pregnant next cycle" scenarios and ... it is Christmas 2017 and I am still not pregnant, and DH and I are breaking up etc etc .... just catastrophising.

Wishing everyone a lovely relaxed weekend, good baby vibes,
WW
x

[juniper76]

Sunday 18 May 2014

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
CatyO - taking a break
Kel82 - taking a break
PositivelyGTC - taking a break
Jo_white - saving for IVF
Bestrong - waiting for AF
Glorious - ???
Amy_jellybean - ???
Sarah4kurt -
Juniper76 - CD11
1 More Please (Rai) - CD12
Miss.B - CD20
Emma09 - CD21
Nothing2lose - CD21
Joski - CD27


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here... https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...14-5-a-197228/)


Got their BFP in May


M.I.A. - We'd love to hear from you!
Ceejelz, Babycakes


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[juniper76]

Juniper, so your DH is opposed to mixing genetics? I do get that point of view, too. It is a really complex emotional area. Hold on a sec, I was just re-reading your post. So your DH opposes another man's sperm to be more precise. How do you feel about that?

To be honest, I'm annoyed by the double standard when it comes to the idea of just one of us having a genetic link, but grateful that he's okay with neither of us having that link so we're not in an impossible situation (we have been told most donor egg programs would not allow us to use DH's sperm, so if he was insisting he have a genetic link no matter what, we'd be screwed).

I'm glad to her your brother and SIL made your visit easier to bear. I'm sure others here will agree that you're not alone in those thoughts about your own fertility. There's no way of knowing what the future will bring, so you just have to decide if you're prepared to keep trying and risk further disappointments... I'm still in the "gotta be in it to win it" frame of mind, although I admit there is a certain amount of heel dragging (eg I was supposed to start OPKs yesterday but didn't) because I'm kind of fed up with the endless TTC...

[juniper76]

Monday 19 May 2014

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
CatyO - taking a break
Kel82 - taking a break
PositivelyGTC - taking a break
Jo_white - saving for IVF
Bestrong - waiting for AF
Glorious - ???
Amy_jellybean - ???
Sarah4kurt -
Juniper76 - CD12
1 More Please (Rai) - CD13
Miss.B - CD21
Emma09 - CD22
Nothing2lose - CD22
Joski - CD28


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here... https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...14-5-a-197228/)


Got their BFP in May


M.I.A. - We'd love to hear from you!
Ceejelz, Babycakes


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[Sarah4kurt13]

My best friends just told me she's pregnant :-/ .
Here we go, I hate not being able to just enjoy such thing with her without it stinging me every time in which I have to hide. I love her and am very happy for her and she felt so bad telling me, I told her not to feel bad at all!

This ltttc is slapping me in the face today!! And I only just staterd bleeding yesterday, I feel so defeated.

I hope one of us gets a win in here soon it's due for it!
Xox

[Pholi]

Hi ladies, I'm Pholi. I'm new.

I've been stalking for a whole now, but I think it's time I introduced myself.

We're just getting started on AC for any number 2. We have DS who is 20 months, and was conceived by ICSI on the first cycle. We have MFI - my DP has an epidydimal cyst which gives him pretty low sperm count, so we knew that we were likely to need help this time too.

So I've seen my FS again, he's happy to go ahead and make us pregnant again. He's keen to do the Ovarian reserve blood tests to help determine drug doses, for which I need to be no longer BF.

So DS had his last feed last Wednesday, and is coping surprisingly well! It's one more week before I can get the tests done, three weeks for the results to come in and see the FS again to discuss results, and if the timing is right, I might be able to get a cd21 appt straight away and start an egg collection cycle then! But I'm cd24 today, on a 31 day cycle, give or take, so it's cutting it really fine, and we might have to wait a whole other month. :/

I'm really glad to be getting this process started, I've been feeling 'ready' to get pg since DS was 7 months, but we didn't start trying til he was 12 months. Then DP wanted to put off getting an FS appt cos he was worried about money, then it took 2 months to actually get the first appt... I feel very hopeful, since we conceived DS on the first go, but if course I'm that much older now, and there are no guarantees in this game.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to getting to know you all a little better.

[1 more please]

Pholi welcome hope your stay is short xxx

Just wanting to ask about the ovarian reserve blood test I have heard its not very accurate and its not worth the money. What's everyone's thoughts?
I thought of having one as well then got told its not worth it but if you think it is maybe I should have one before my ivf as well??

[Sarah4kurt13]

Welcome pholi :-) hope it goes just as smooth this first time as well!

1 moreplease, I got my AMH done and I don't know but I believe it is correct in being low for me . Other things point to this so that's not the definitive one.
I am a poor responder and less in my antral follicular count ect. Periods lighter. Short Luteal phase. Ect.
But then I've heard of it being wrong! And I've heard of the regeneration studies/ theory being that women can actually produce more eggs like mens sperm given the right circumstances!
I've still not found help in knowing my AMH level it did nothing bar scare me lol.

[juniper76]

Tuesday 20 May 2014

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
CatyO - taking a break
Kel82 - taking a break
PositivelyGTC - taking a break
Jo_white - saving for IVF
Bestrong - waiting for AF
Glorious - ???
Amy_jellybean - ???
Sarah4kurt -
Juniper76 - CD13
1 More Please (Rai) - CD14
Miss.B - CD22
Emma09 - CD23
Nothing2lose - CD23
Joski - CD29


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here... https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...14-5-a-197228/)


Got their BFP in May


M.I.A. - We'd love to hear from you!
Ceejelz, Babycakes


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[juniper76]

Pholi, hi and welcome!

Rai, it's pretty standard for most, if not all, FS to want to run AMH these days. It was the first thing my old FS did when we went back to see him after DD was born. The thing to remember is that it's just one piece of the puzzle - to get the full picture, you really want to consider AMH, CD3 bloodwork and AFC (antral follicle count) together. Sadly, for me, the three of those all agree on a fairly bleak picture. But for some women, there can be large discrepancies (eg low AMH but good AFC, meaning they still respond well to the stims).

[PositivelyGTC]

HI Ladies, Happy Tuesday to you all

Miss B - GL with trying out a new FS if it feels right then go for it

Sarah - You too hun, FX and who knows perhaps all you need is a fresh set of eyes

Emma - What is PGD? GL hun I am crossing everything for you, as I wish for all the others Ladies praying you have a positive outcome

WW - You did so well with meeting your newborn nephew, good on you it must have been pretty tough going

Pholi - Welcome to the forum, hope your stay is short and sweet. GL with starting your treatment

1more - I am with Sarah I have found knowing my AMH level has just caused more stress/worry I now can't help thinking about my low levels which feeds my obsession. I would honestly rather not know and just keeps TTC without that hanging over my head
But that is only my opinion and I totally respect that everyone is different and some may find comfort in knowing. You go with your gut! GL

AFM - it's finally come time to start planning SIL's babyshower so far the invites are done need to get them printed and mailed out. It is damn tough going I dread seeing her now as she gets much larger and when you do see her she just constantly rubs her tummy and advises it's kicking etc (yes im jealous!) the crapola thing is every single time we catch AF is here for me which somehow makes it feel like it's been rubbed in my face. Silly I know
I now just want the babyshower over and done with, we start IVF the week after the shower I guess I will have that to look forward to unless the universe blesses us before then with a BFP....you never know

Ladies I am sending you all a BIG virtual hug, we all deserve it as we continually embark on this very difficult journey. We are all STRONGER than we seem
Love & Light xx

[juniper76]

+OPK today, putting O on our wedding anniversary tomorrow... Wish I could still be so naive as to think that was a sign it was "meant to be"... Here we go with another 2ww...