Well girls - how are you all? I haven't been around much this past week - had the lovely gastro that's been going around. My AF has finally turned up - so we can start IVF#2. I know I should be going 'yay', but to tell you the truth I am really scared.

I asked my doctor what would happen if we had a low response to the higher dose (highest dose there is) and she basically said nothing. So, this is it. Last cycle we only had one or two follicles - if it doesn't work this time I just don't know what I'm going to do.

My work have been really painful too. I had time off when our cycle was cancelled (2 days) and from that they wrote me a letter about how I have to speak directly to them if I want time off. Well, with gastro I was in that much pain on Tuesday that the doctor gave me an injection to get rid of the pain and I pretty much zonked out. My DH rang my manager that night and left a message and the next day my General Manager rang and said I had to call and speak with her directly. Huh! I was asleep dammit! My DH rang her and she said if I was really that sick I would be in hospital. I really don't need this 'you know what' from them. Bunch of unfeeling uncaring......

Sorry about this rant. I'm just a bit scared and over having to worry about pathetic things like work and their stupid little control games. I'm very close to quitting my job - but of course we need the money to be able to afford IVF!!