kbudgie, my d&c cycle was 35 days. I know the hcg was gone (or at least low enough to get a BFN on the HPT) in less than 2 weeks and I tracked my cycle (OPK & BBT) to detect O. Try to be a bit kinder to yourself. At one month post-d&c I was barely finding my way out of the deep depression I had fallen into and I struggled for months. It wasn't until the EDD passed that I really started to move on properly. Not everyone would need that long, but there's no shame in needing more time. We all handle the grief differently. I know it has been a long wait, but this cycle will end and you will move on to the next. FX the next one brings you more happiness.