Hi lovely ladies,

I have been lurking and not posting much, but have been following along with your cycles.

KellyD, fingers crossed you get your surge soon, and GL with you FET. My there are lots of us coming up with FETs. Hope Feb is the month for it.

Kritkit, so sorry to hear re your results, I hope it is nothing serious. I know what you mean re the costs for the lap, but most of it is covered by Medicare isn't it? I love the government and the safety net. Did a quick calculation today and worked out I have spent over $35,000 on IVF in the past year or so. So happy that a lot of this is refunded.

Mrs P, how frustrating for you. Fingers crossed all will be well by March. It is best to make sure that both your health is in the best possible condition. I know I have gotten much better embies out of cycles where I watch my diet etc. Though never could tear DH away from the ice cream.

Aleenta, sending you lots of baby dust in the TWW. Nothing is more stressful or more exciting. I hope this is the one for you.

Meredith, don't lose all hope, there is always a chance. I keep trying to tell my self miracles can happen. I hope it happens for you, and if not you have lots of lovely frosties for your FET.

Mollygirl, I have been wondering how you were going. Hope the Provera bring on AF as planned. Crazy me did a quick calculation for you and worked out you might get your BT results and a BFP before end of Feb, wow, only around the corner. I would be just as excited as if it were my own BFP. Will be thinking of you.

Smithy, how's it going with you? When are you doing your FET? Was it March or sooner, I notice you changed your signature. Good luck.

Diamond, hoping you get some great fert results, 6 is a great number. Will be watching to see how your cycle goes and praying for a BFP for you.

MissM, hope your scan went well and you have lots of great follies there.

Cuddlepie, yay, FET in Feb for you. It is just around the corner. I hope I can follow you right after and we can both have FET BFP together!

Spring, GL for the 4th Feb, we are all praying for you, hope the TWW speeds by.

Neptune, hope your spotting is implantation spotting, fingers crossed for you in your TWW.

Rob, same to you, best of luck in the TWW.

Sara, I hope you are keeping well and looking forward to your next cycle. I am thinking of you.

Jbub, GL for your FS appointment, I hope you get your BFP again first round.

WLAB, yay for you too in you TWW, sending lots of sticky baby vibes and thoughts are with you for your BT on the 5th.

Saph, OMG, I am so excited for you and praying your very faint line gets darker and darker.

Toby, GL with you FS appointment. I know what it is like, I was in denial that I had to go to IVF for 3 years. Now I just wish I had started sooner.

To anyone I have missed, GL with whereever you are in your cycles.

AFM, I have had a very hard last two weeks, with a BFN from my latest stim cycle on the 14th, which I had had such high hopes for. I was really praying that doing the Colorado Protocol would be the one thing I needed to make it happy.

And to top it of, DH told me a few days later that his sister (my SIL), after getting married at the end of October 08, has fallen pregnant in her first month trying, so is around 10 weeks now. I was a mess, it is just so not fair that something we hope and pray and live for (us for 4 years now) comes to someone else so easily. I felt like God had just slapped me in the face and I spent the last week feeling very bitter and twisted. IT'S JUST NOT FAIR. I am cycle day 16 today, DH and I DTD last night and afterwards I lay there thinking that for some, it is as easy as that. I just can't comprehend it.

But I am trying to move on. I had my FS appointment today for a cycle review. He has said that he is almost at a loss as to why I am not yet pregnant after 5 ETs, and has referred me to Dr Julie Lindstrom in Brisbane hoping to get a fresh perspective on my 'case'. I am feeling both let down and elated at the same time, hoping that she will be able to come up with something that will make the difference. I am hoping to get in to see her in the next 2 weeks, before AF arrives. So in the meantime we are planning an FET once AF arrives, still with the Colorado Protocol. Really searching for some hope and faith in this. But it is hard.

Sorry for the long post and my vent. Best wishes to you all. XX