Haven't been around for a few days - theres so many in here it takes forever to catch up!!!!
Mel - Sweetie, I just wanted to send you out loads of hugs... there's just nothing anyone can say to make you feel any better right now.
Go and spoil yourself with a really big bar of chocolate or a nice bottle of wine xxx
To everyone else, theres just no way I have time today to write personals.... theres too many of us now!!!
Just wanted to let you know about our most trying weekend to date on this horrible TTC journey!!!!
Well, as you all know, we have babies being born around us everywhere at the moment!
Ex hubby and his 2nd wife had their baby on Friday.
This was the one I was a little nervous about... they have given Luke his first sibling... and I just didn't know how I was going to go with it all.
Well, unless it is yet to hit me properly, I think I've dealt with it ok!
We drove Luke up on the weekend (3hrs) to see his new baby sister, but I think the hardest thing about it all was that I have had to really get Luke through the last few days... His Dad has never been that great in his efforts of being a Dad, and has just popped in and out of his life as he has felt like it.
He doesn't see Luke that often, as almost anything becomes a better priority, so Luke has been extremely anxious about the new baby coming... I think his way of thinking is that this baby was going to take the tinest part of his Dad off him that he has left.
Time will tell, but being 8yrs old, he is too old not to be emotional about it but too young to comprehend why...
The two of us spent Saturday shopping for a present for his new baby sister... he was almost in tears, and between my mixed emotions, and my wanting to stop the pain for him, it was heart wrenching.
What a horrible day it was!!! We ended up having a big plate of pancakes at a cafe halfway through, and had some ice cream afterwards.. there wasn't much else I could do for him.
Honestly the worst situation I have had to be in so far as a parent!!
Anyway, we got through it - probably keeping it together for his sake was the only thing that saved me!
When we got there, we had to visit my SIL who has 4 weeks to go of her 2nd pregnancy, DH best friend & his wife who had their first baby a week ago, another couple that work for DH's parents that had their 1st baby 2 weeks ago, and another good friend of DH's wife went into labour and gave birth yesterday before we left to come home.....aaaahhhhhh!!!!
Needless to say our weekend was emotionally draining.. a lot to happen in 2 days!!!!
We kept it together, but OMG it was glad to come home last night!!!
Anyway, I should go before I take up the remainder of this thread with my mini novel here....
To everyone else, and those especially on your 2ww... my heart is with all of you!!!
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