Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception March 2013

**nothing2lose** · March 6th, 2013, 07:44 PM

It's nice to see some 'old' faces in here

I've pretty much given up ttc. But then again, do you ever actually give up?

**Miss.B** · March 6th, 2013, 07:46 PM

Thanks myturn

A holiday sounds fantabulous

I hope that you'll have a great time, I loved Hamilton Island. Fingers and toes crossed for all of us this year

GL with your FS appointment hun! I so wish we could cycle together

**myturn** · March 6th, 2013, 07:46 PM

I guess one day we have to think about it, but I agree, I don't think you stop hoping for a "freebie"

I am thinking about cycling in may or June, I want to lose weight to do it, but I dot really think I want to wait either... So I will see what he says about the weight, and weather I really SHOULD do that first.....

**Miss.B** · March 6th, 2013, 07:48 PM

I feel like that too n2l. But then again, I gave myself this year only. It it doesn't happen one way or another, so be it. I have to prepare myself to slowly come to terms with it (I have 9 months or so, should be enough time

)

**myturn** · March 6th, 2013, 07:49 PM

Ps.... N2l just noticed your living in district 12... Love it

**nothing2lose** · March 6th, 2013, 07:51 PM

Ps.... N2l just noticed your living in district 12... Love it

My DD thinks she is Catniss

**juniper76** · March 6th, 2013, 07:56 PM

But then again, do you ever actually give up?

I doubt it. Maybe one day we'll achieve enough emotional distance from it to walk away completely, but it won't be any time soon. I'd expect to hit menopause first... Lol, and maybe I wouldn't even give up then? (I'm thinking of going on the waiting list for our clinic's donor egg program - estimated 6-year wait - in case we can actually afford it later and want to do it.)

I'm happy with where I am now though - I don't have that desperate 100% emotional investment where it occupies every waking thought, but we're doing as much as we can to try to increase our odds so that we (hopefully) won't have regrets later if it never happens. I can live my life this way for a while and not feel like everything is on hold like it was for so long before... I can better cope with the BFNs this way too...

**myturn** · March 6th, 2013, 07:57 PM

Lol... I used to put myself into the main character of the story too.... I am Hermione, Anne of green gables, Dorothy and all the rest... (Usually the pretty princesses....) that's why I really would love a girl baby .... Even though I know I should just want one whatever it is

but I digress....

**myturn** · March 6th, 2013, 07:58 PM

Juniper that sounds really healthy...

I guess I feel desperate sometimes, cause I worry I will never be a mum, and being a step mum just isn't cutting it for me...

**juniper76** · March 6th, 2013, 08:08 PM

myturn, that makes sense. I couldn't have done this when TTC#1. That was years of the obsessive 100% investment. I just can't go through that again though and I can't risk losing years doing that and missing out on DD in the process; I've already missed too much in the 12 months that I struggled after the d&c. The guilt and regret, on top of the disappointment, is too much.

Oh, and, while we'd be thrilled with a healthy baby of either gender, we definitely want another girl.

Nothing wrong with having a preference.

**myturn** · March 6th, 2013, 08:19 PM

You have to think about DD cause she is the most important thing right now xxox
being grown up, and knowing that's the right thing doesn't make it easier sometimes, and other times... It makes it a hole heap easier.

You know, if I don't have a baby. Ill be okay. I know I will. I will still be happy, and have a full and rich life. I just hope I don't miss out on life in the meantime.

**Miss.B** · March 6th, 2013, 08:21 PM

I think the CoQ10 has given me grey hairs........you know, DOWN THERE

. What else could it be

Either that or the Universe is trying really really hard to tell me something

**myturn** · March 6th, 2013, 08:25 PM

Oh miss b!!!

I've got grey hairs in my eyebrows!!!

**Miss.B** · March 6th, 2013, 08:29 PM

Bahahahah I wish I had them there myturn, I was absolutely horrified! Of all places! Seriously, do they have to show up there? Doesn't make me feel as young as I do at heart that's for sure! lol