Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception Nov 2012

Omg omg ! Excitement plus!!!!!

So my nurse told be yesterday
(17th with my bfn) that i couldnt fit in another cycle b4 my clinic closes for xmas...
You can inagine my devastation ?!?!
Last cycle start dates are 19th, i said well im not pg so what if i get AF in the next 2 days....

Shes says "thats impossible Jodie, your progesterone is still 6.."

I cried and cried into DF's chest ): i then went out to nickelback and we stayed in a awesome hotel room for the night and i thoroughly enjoyed my night out with bff ! I really needed it. She has an 11 week old DD and it was her first night out since giving birth so it was a special night for both of us.

Came home this afternoon with wicked AF pains.... Worst cramps in my 28 years on this earth, i swear. Next bathroom stop and AF had arrived loud and freakin clearrrr !!! (up yours nursey)

So ............ I got af after midday which makes tomorrow (19th) CD1 (for the list) tuesday CD2 and my second round of clomid begins.... Only concern i have is if my prog is not at baseline by tuesday i wont be able to do the cycle. But fx for me and my DDDF !!
Feeling confident (-:

I read all of your posts and am semi kinda almost up to date with you all. Girls on a break... I might still be joining you... We'll see, but if i dont, just try to relax and enjoy the festive season and ****tail :)

Everyone else!!! fxfxfxfx for eggys and spermies and O'ing and transfers and implantations and CONCEPTION and DTD and love and marriage and and and everything else that comes along for you all on this rollercoaster ride !

Big huuuuge love xxoo

Morning everyone.

Faye - I am so sorry to hear they cancelled your cycle. Big hugs.

Curtsygirl - I hope all tour levels are baseline so you can try again this year.

Blossom - good luck for transfer today. Fx it sticks

Me4ever - are you going to test today or wait till tomorrow? I can feel your anxiety. Fx that you get a bfp.

Afm - I am now waiting for Friday for transfer. Just taking 3 progynova a day. I feel pretty good & relaxed.

Hi everyone else. So sorry for all those who have been made to take a break because of Xmas. It's so hard when we are all impatient & want a baby now. Even harder when everyone around just seems to either be having babies or getting pregnant without even trying. Hugs to all of you.

Thanks everyone for keeping their fingers crossed for us... I'm not testing today, Beau, just holding out till the blood test tomorrow. I'm hoping to give HCG a chance to grow to a bigger number, or for it to have gone down, so we will find out then if it was a chem pregnancy. Am not getting too excited yet. Just trying to be hopeful though. Not long now before your transfer Beau, how exciting! Fingers crossed for you!
Curtsy - yay for early AF - hopefully progesterone will have gone down!
Faye - hugs for you sweety, I'm sorry cycle got cancelled :(

Starting new OI cycle today.
Im actually CD2 today. Prob begin clomid tomoro & ovidrel injections on CD17 yayayay !!!

Have a great day everyone. Xxoo

me4ever - Good luck with your blood test tomorrow... I have my FX for you!

Curtsygirl - Great news... Good luck with the cycle

Beau30 - Good luck with transfer on Friday... FX

Blossom73 - Good luck today... I hope you get a BFP in a couple of weeks time

Sorry to those I've missed... so hard to keep up with everyone. To those now on a break until after xmas I have my fingers crossed for some natural miracles.

AFM - still struggling a bit today with the emotions of having my cycle cancelled yesterday. Sucks to get so close to the end of such a long cycle just for it to be cancelled. I'm hoping I'll feel better once I can stop taking the synarel. Got a holiday coming up early January to QLD for a week so will be nice to have a break, hopefully come back refreshed and ready to start a new cycle (if I don't fall pregnant in the mean time).

:goodluck: Monday 19th November 2012 :goodluck:


Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Faye* - cycle cancelled, waiting for AF
Myturn - CD0
Curtysgirl - CD2
Treenie86 - CD2
Miloro - CD6
N2L - CD7
Emma - CD7
Sarah4Kurt - CD8
Juniper - CD12
Beau30 - CD14
Wishanddream - CD23
Kerbear - C24
Jo_white - CD30
Rosemarry006 - CD40
Nic - CD68
Emerald Star - CD71???


Waiting for Transfer
Krikkit - CD19 5dpEPU


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums/...ek-Wait-2012-7)
Blossom - CD18 0dp5dt
Andie - CD24 5dp5dt
Me4ever - CD31 12dp5dt


Got Their BFP in November :pray:
Nire - BFP on HPT - low first beta, but great doubling time for second beta!!

Thanks for keeping your fingers crossed for me. I just got the results from the clinic and it's negative :( HCG was 4, so too low to be considered anything :( Pretty sad now. Will have to work out what to do coming month as we're getting married early December and don't know if we can work it around it. TTC is supposed to be fun, but this sucks big time :$

Me4ever I am so sorry Hun I was hoping it would be better news for you. Ttc does suck,focus on your wedding to distract you and enjoy a break from ttc and enjoy some fun exciting times with your hubby to be. Take care of yourself xo

me4ever, sorry to hear that, hun. :hug: I'd focus on the wedding and make the coming weeks a positive time for yourselves, but that's just me... Maybe just some BD for fun and let nature decide?

me4ever so sorry x all the best with the Wedding, hopefully you can take your mind off things even for a little while.

I am sure you can all forgive me as I am still getting used to the Jargon LOL

best of luck to everyone x

Sorry to hear that me4ever :(

Sorry me4ever that's sucks!! Take time have big cry then focus on having fun with DH and look forward to one of the best days of your life, enjoy your wedding day xxx

I'm so sorry Me4ever - sending you a massive hug. Wishing you all the very best for your wedding xx

Hi to everyone else. I'm still hanging around in the background. Having our scan on Wednesday to check if little Squishy is growing and sticking around.
Its been a very stressful few weeks.

Sorry m4e :hug:

So sorry me4 :( :hug:

Thanks girls for your support! I didn't tell any of my family or friends that we were doing this cycle, so no support there :( It helps immensely having you girls who (unfortunately) understand the pain of yet another BFN :(. I suppose I'll be joining the list of ladies waiting for Xmas to be over to start the next cycle... Fingers crossed for some more BFP's this month! And I suppose I'll be able to enjoy a couple of drinks on our wedding day :) Thanks for all the wishes for our wedding day!

Will be thinking of you Wednesday nire... Obviously hoping for a good result but will be good for you to finally know what's happening one way or another

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Will be thinking of you Wednesday nire... Obviously hoping for a good result but will be good for you to finally know what's happening one way or another

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yeah! Me too!!! FX all is well xoxoxoxo :hug:




and on a good note.... AF is in the house ;) CD1 for me tomorrow (tuesday) ..... was secretly hoping for a natural miracle, but never really thought that was possible, instead I am all chipper that I get to 'get started' again ;)

My turn - sucks you didn't get a natural miracle, maybe it is so we both get bfp's as a Christmas present since our cycles for epu will be so close together :-)

Nire - hope your scan wed shows everything is going well and squishy is all tucked up growing nicely xo

this would be so cool Kerbear, I'm quietly hopeful, but not especially positive. Truthfully, I am thinking it will be a BFN this time, but I am hoping for a few frosties from this cycle to go ahead with. I just can't imagine I would get two sticky ones in a row.... and I am okay with that.

I am going to remain quietly positive and feel okay whatever happens. Cause (as I said last time) there's actually no reason why it couldn't be 'the one'... so I'll remain hopeful, and realistic at the same time.... just feeling calm, and going to meditate each night before bed (my replacement for acupuncture :) )



as for everyone else... i desperately want to scan back and do personals.... but I know that trying to catch up with everything is unlikely!! So I will just start from today and hopefully keep on top of things ;)

I am so sorry me4ever - sending big hugs to you. I definitely agree with the other girls you will be distracted with your wedding over the next few weeks. Enjoy the lead up & your wedding day. Make the most of your time with df & then relax on your honeymoon. Next year will be here before you know it. Xx

Good luck for scan Wednesday Nire.

Nire, FX for Wednesday. I've been thinking of you and hoping it all works out well. :hug:

Afm, saw my GP this evening and my u/s on Friday indicated I have ruptured a ligament (not a tendon as I thought the sonographer had said). I've been referred to a surgeon, but been told it is most likely the surgeon will decide not to operate.

niretrom.... Good luck for sticky sticky bub, fx for you xoxo


*baby dust*baby dust*

m4e...... so sorry hun. Keep your chin up, we are all thinking of you. Enjoy you wedding day xoxo

my turn ...... AF is poo !! But yay for new cycle !!! Good luck !!!

Juniper........ Sounds painful, sorry to hear that ):

afm..... Still excited for my second OI cycle. Feeling positive coz i know it worked last time. The timing, the dosages of the triggers & the clomid were spot on and my body did the right thing !!! Such a good feeling. Now to get DF in the sack at the perfect time to CATCH THAT EGGY !!!

Take care everybody, see you soon
Big huge soppy love xxoo

Never thought I would be sitting here wanting to start injections but I am, I am over this long cycle 3wks down and another 3 to go before EPU :-( injections start sat unless I get an early bleed from stopping pregnova and estrogen tablets.
I hope all of this torture on my body is worth it this time!!!!

Yeah long cycle is a pain! Feels like you are waiting forever. When FS gave me the choice last time, I was definitely keen to do antagonist... Seems like you get to the point before you know it! Even this morning when the nusmrse was saying okay start meds on Thursday and 2nd one in Friday - then scan next week - I was surprised but glad.

When it starts it will all happen and before you know it you'll be back in another TWW...

Breathe :) :hug:

Thanks Hun I just know I can't do this again and it scares me.....today is a hard day of tears.

I will try breathing :-) xo

Kerbear, I had a day like that yesterday. I feel better today. Hoping you get past this and tomorrow is brighter xx

Ps I think we are cycle buddies. I am hoping to start my stim injections on Thursday or Friday.

Big hug for both of you :hug: xx

Big :hug: ladies :)

AFM- Day 8 US today.
10 decent size follies.
EPU could be Saturday, Sunday or Monday- US this Thursday to confirm.
My FS has gone and torn ligaments in her foot, so EPU will be done by a different MIVF Dr.... Makes me nervous, I like my FS!

Me4ever, I'm sorry hun :hug: It's good that you can still turn the negative into some sort of a positive about being able to have a good drink for your wedding and xmas. Hopefully we can be cycling buddies in 2013 :crossfingers: Very excited about your wedding!

Hello and GL in your cycles ladies :)

Hi girls,

Just thought I'd poke my head in and come clean about stalking you all...

I ended up with septicaemia and a hospital stay due to retained products after my 12 week miscarriage, so I've been told that I can't do anything until the new year :( Starting to get impatient now, although I know it's good to let my body recover becasue the infection was so bad and also still griveing obviously... but keen to get back on the horse at the same time). We'll probably do 1-3 OI cycles and then if no BFP go to IVF. I know I don't have the strength to do another 8! (although maybe not the bank balance to do the ivf!)

So anyway, will be stalking you and wishing the best until January but then will be joining some of you. Good luck!!

LS x

:goodluck: Tuesday 20th November 2012 :goodluck:


Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Faye* - cycle cancelled, waiting for AF
Myturn - CD1
Curtysgirl - CD3
Treenie86 - CD3
Miloro - CD7
N2L - CD8
Emma - CD8
Sarah4Kurt - CD9
Juniper - CD13
Beau30 - CD15
Wishanddream - CD24
Kerbear - C25
Jo_white - CD31
Rosemarry006 - CD41
Nic - CD69
Emerald Star - CD72???


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums/...ek-Wait-2012-7)
Blossom - CD19 1dp5dt
Krikkit - CD20 3dp3dt
Andie - CD25 6dp5dt
Me4ever - CD32 13dp5dt


Got Their BFP in November :pray:
Nire - BFP on HPT - low first beta, but great doubling time for second beta!!

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My FS has gone and torn ligaments in her foot

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It's what all the cool people are doing these days!! :cool:

LS, sorry to hear you have been so unwell as a result of the m/c. Talk about adding insult to injury. :hug: The new year will be here soon for all of us who are waiting.

Afm, got an appt with the surgeon tomorrow and there's an opening on Thursday if he wants to operate.

Kerbear .... Big hug for you sweeetie xx

Hello Lyra and Miss B (:

N2l I am glad you are feeling better today, hope tomorrow is better for me. Yay to cycling buddies, that makes you, me and myturn so far that will be together from what I can see :-)

Thanks myturn, Emma and curtsy girl

Emma - sounds promising for a good number for EPU, crossing everything for you.

Missb - hi hope you have been doing ok xo

Lyra stardust - you have been thrown a very awful stick having to go through that after your loss. Relax during your break and let your body recover ready for a fresh start next year. Thinking of you xo

Juniper - how is your ankle feeling? Any more new yet on the doc's plans with it?

Question... To those of you who do share the ivf with a few friends or family, do you hit a point where you just don't talk about how you are feeling anymore cause you feel like you sound like a broken record?
I feel like that at the moment and I think that is why I have been feeling so down, my sisters are never sick of my whinges or whines so they say but how do I know they aren't just saying that cause they have to. We are a very close family and I don't feel I can talk to them about it at the moment cause of everything going on with the new baby in our family. I don't want them to think I want it to about me cause I don't but I can't help what I am going through atm and that it is the same time she had her baby early.
Why do you always feel guilty about talking about this when there is new babies???? I think it is my fear of being judged as not caring about them, which I do very much.

I am so sorry for that blurt out of feelings but I can't talk to anyone else and say all of that except with you lovely supporting ladies xo

kerbear, I stopped talking about it more because I got sick of saying "no, it was another BFN" and feeling like I was letting them down by giving them more bad news. I also got sick of hearing all the well-meaning but completely mis-guided advice (eg "why don't you just adopt"). I found the only place I could really talk through everything was on the forums. I'd have had a nervous breakdown if I hadn't had that support available to me. I find no-one really understands unless they've been there. We do have one friend IRL who did IVF, but she doesn't like to talk about it, so she wasn't someone I could turn to for support. Blurt away; that's what we're here for. And if there's ever anything you don't want to post publicly, you're more than welcome to send me a PM (and there's always the private vent forum, if you have access).

yes! Kerbear.. broken record.. my replies usually start with tired, exhausted.. drained.. can't wait for a break. Even the clinic nurse asked me if I was "over it" yet.. well no s*it sherlock... The only people that get it are my best friend who did IVF and my hubby as he sees me daily and can tell when I am just done. He gets it when I whinge to him and well use him as my punching bag. I have offered numerous times to inject him daily with saline so he can feel the pain I go through! hehehehe...

Ironically, this time around I don't feel so bad. Not drained or tired - quite normal and able to function and keep the house clean.. even make the bed *shock horror*

Transfer was Sat, 2 x fresh 8 cell scoring 3/4 - and the first time EVER not under anesthetic, which was traumatic to say the least. Given I had just had a modified fentons done too. Three Valium and 2 locals later.. I at least got to see them being put back.

I also found out today that one of my little 3 days made it to day 5 and is a blasty. This has NEVER happened before. I am amazed... DHEA and HGH made such a difference this time.

Kerbear - we didnt tell when doing a cycle. It got too hard constantly feeling like a failure, with ever bfn. It doesnt get easier when the bfp comes as we are not telling anyone. Even today my auntie cornered me and pushed the ivf, adoption, fostering thing. This whole journey is so draining, both in our own homes and with other relationships.

At the end of the day no one obssesses like we do in here :) I found it so helpfull, almost like having on tap councelling.

Krit -all the very best for this cycle hun xxx

Kerbear - we didnt tell when doing a cycle. It got too hard constantly feeling like a failure, with ever bfn. It doesnt get easier when the bfp comes as we are not telling anyone. Even today my auntie cornered me and pushed the ivf, adoption, fostering thing. This whole journey is so draining, both in our own homes and with other relationships.

At the end of the day no one obssesses like we do in here :) I found it so helpfull, almost like having on tap councelling.

Krit -all the very best for this cycle hun xxx

Hi ladies ive been lucky,the people i have told dont ask me about my journey unless i bring it up.well all except for one person.its like im a broken record with her!