BW - Don't you worry about being snotty or selfish or anything else for that matter to get through this :hugs:

Do whatever you need to do and be however you need to be to get you through - You have every right to grieve xxx

Remember we are all here with you and holding your hand through this (and lots of really big hugs)... even if you can't feel us holding you we're all here together xxx

Take all of the time you need and I pray you & your DH can give each other the strength you need.

Much much love xxx