I'm so sorry to hear that you are feeling blue and big hugs to you . Don't apologise at all for posting how you are feeling... you have every right to be upset. We are all here celebrate the good news and offer support to one another when the news is not so good . It is a daunting thought to think about the possibility of not having anything to transfer or freeze after coming so far. Try to keep positive and 2 x 7 cell embies is good.... there is still time for the others to catch up by Monday. I know it is easier said than done though.. I'll be 'ing that they all make the grade for you and that you will have a fantastic one to transfer and good ones to freeze as well. Thinking of you and hoping that it will be 3rd time lucky, lol.
Sorry no personals. Am feeling rather upset, have had a cry and just dont know what to do. I need to vent a little.
So,DH and I travelled bright and early this morning for my first US and 3rd BT. All was ok good with that, just had to wait for my "official" results phone call. Noted at the US that the follicles they did measure were quite small with the largest being approx 10mm .
Anyway, got the call from the nurse. She let me know that she had spoken with my FS who wants to push on with this cycle (gee sounds promising..... not). He has asked that I keep taking the 450IU of Puregon and the 10units Lucrin each day and I need to go back in on Tuesday for a BT but no US this time hmmmmm. Nurse also told me that my Estrogen levels had increased slightly (Tues was 143 and today it was at 360) but still down on where they would really like them to be at. Nurse also told me that my uterus lining is at 6mm so all good there and that I have 9 follies however all were smaller than 10mm She also said that she was waiting for FS to look at my FSH levels from the BT. Not sure what she meant by that but Im sure it didnt matter.
To say im disapointed with those results is an understatement. I have a feeling that were headed down the same path as cycle number 1 and that is cancellation due to poor performance. Im sorry If Im affending anyone but this just isnt fair. Why am I not responding to my Puregon shots. Thats one thing I just need to know is why? Is there something else medically wrong with me that we have missed and I need to have it looked into. Not to mention, If we were to stop IVF and try naturally, what complications would we have then??? I thought IVF was to help, not hinder. Its just not fair.
Havent mentioned to DH yet but am seriously thinking of cancelling and giving up (I know this is only number 2 but can you blame me when it all seems to be tracking in the exact same way. I have even gone for Accupuncture for this session and I am of the opinion at the moment that I dont think it did diddly squat for me). I dont know that I can keep going knowing the information I know from my failed first cycle and what it is im being told now. I feel like I already know where this is headed and Its just not fair at all.
Sorry for the very big me post. I just dont get it at all now. WHY body, Why are you doing this to me!!!!!
motherhoodhereIcome- ((hugs)) to you hun and vent away. I am sorry your feeling so bad about your results and understand perfectly where your coming from. Dont throw in the towel just yet ((hugs))
airline- your little embies are still going, try to keep positive about that sweetie ((hugs))
Coral- awesome news for you, I hope both stick, my FS refuses to transfer 2, I have asked a few times now
Meg- sounds like everything is going great for you too. Sending stickyvibes
sonyalouise- so sorry mate ((hugs))
Bonny- welcome aboard and GL
AFM- I had EPU this morning, was most unpleasent the aneathatist was horrible and I got THREE eggs, I am somewhat dissapointed with that, trying to stay positive, I know we only need one good little embie *sigh*
Hey Motherhood here i come. I just want to say that I feel for you and really hope you get some positive results soon. I'm only on my first IVF/ICSI cycle and am a slow responder. Started on 150UI Puregon. First scan only showed 1 or 2 follies in one ovary with the other ovary looking a bit dead (FS's words!). I was absolutely gutted. Dose increased to 250 UI. Fri's scan showed only 3 follies. Sigh. Dose now 450 UI. FS said with 3 follies we still have a "fighting chance", so we've decided to keep going. I get that the first cycle can be experimental, but can't help feeling anxious and disappointed all the same. It feels like I'm on this scary rollercoaster ride and I'm just hanging on. Have got another scan on Monday and am hoping we don't have to cancel this cycle. I know it's your second go, but please try not to lose heart. Hang in there, girlfriend. Have my fingers and toes crossed for you
Mitf - So glad you are coping better this time round in your 2WW...can't wait to hear your results!! GL
Coral73 - Yay!!!! 2 great embies on board!!! Bring on Nov 3rd....GL to you tooo hon!
Loops12 - So sorry to hear again of your financial status.....I really do hope that you get to sell your tractor AND calf feeding trailer and all your worries go away!!!
In the meantime I hope it happens naturally....or maybe try another IUI??? Whatever you do, i wish you the best of luck!!
Sonyalouise - sorry about the confirmed BFN...just remember, one, two or more of us get pregnent every month..next one could be you!! I certainly understand the emotional rollercoaster we're on, so take your time and relax yourself....wine, cheese etc.
Tracy - Hope EPU went well today!!! when is your ET?
Meg76 - You go girl....anyway you look at it, its still a good number. GL in your 2WW.
Bonny - I am sure you will find all the support you need right here...the ladies here are beautiful....also don't be too hard on yourself, you still have a while to go and by next week it will be a totally different story. GL
Airline - Don't worry tooo much ( easier said than done, i know ), as long as they're dividing into cells, they can still be viable pregnancies, with beautiful, healthy bubs...just try and relax until Monday and then let them get comfortable and stick....
Motherhood here i come - try and keep positive, have you spoken to a councillor?
I don't know what else to say, thinking of you!
TRACY - sorry to read about your 3 eggs...but on the other hand YOU HAVE 3 EGGS!! yaaaayyy!!!
AFM - waiting for the time to pass....come on NOVEMBER!!
I hope everyone is off enjoying their weekend rather than sitting here obsessing like I am...
For those who have been down this path before I have a question- I've had a bit of crampy-pain on and off since ET on Friday varying from a stitch-like pain similar to when you can feel yourself ovulating to vague period-type pain. Does anyone know if this is normal? I'll call the FS tomorrow morning but would love your input before then!
I haven't been down the ET before however do remember reading (hope what Im saying is right) some of the others posts where they say that cramping type feeling is normal as its the embryo implanting itself into the lining. FX hey that all goes according to plan and you get a BFP!!!
Just had to share of my three eggs two have fertilised we are still in the game. OMG I have made myself sick thinking they would tell me none had taken. Its such massive weight off my shoulders.
I know we are not in the clear just yet, but its one major hurdle crossed. All going well ET will be Tuesday
. Don't apologise at all for posting how you are feeling... you have every right to be upset. We are all here celebrate the good news and offer support to one another when the news is not so good
. It is a daunting thought to think about the possibility of not having anything to transfer or freeze after coming so far. Try to keep positive and 2 x 7 cell embies is good.... there is still time for the others to catch up by Monday. I know it is easier said than done though.. I'll be
'ing that they all make the grade for you and that you will have a fantastic one to transfer and good ones to freeze as well. Thinking of you and hoping that it will be 3rd time lucky, lol.
Update - Not feeling so positive!!
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She also said that she was waiting for FS to look at my FSH levels from the BT. Not sure what she meant by that but Im sure it didnt matter.
I was absolutely gutted. Dose increased to 250 UI. Fri's scan showed only 3 follies. Sigh. Dose now 450 UI. FS said with 3 follies we still have a "fighting chance", so we've decided to keep going. I get that the first cycle can be experimental, but can't help feeling anxious and disappointed all the same. It feels like I'm on this scary rollercoaster ride and I'm just hanging on. Have got another scan on Monday and am hoping we don't have to cancel this cycle. I know it's your second go, but please try not to lose heart. Hang in there, girlfriend. Have my fingers and toes crossed for you 
I am sure you will find all the support you need right here...the ladies here are beautiful....also don't be too hard on yourself, you still have a while to go and by next week it will be a totally different story. GL
yaaaayyy!!!
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