Sorry no personals. Am feeling rather upset, have had a cry and just dont know what to do. I need to vent a little.
So,DH and I travelled bright and early this morning for my first US and 3rd BT. All was ok good with that, just had to wait for my "official" results phone call. Noted at the US that the follicles they did measure were quite small with the largest being approx 10mm .
Anyway, got the call from the nurse. She let me know that she had spoken with my FS who wants to push on with this cycle (gee sounds promising..... not). He has asked that I keep taking the 450IU of Puregon and the 10units Lucrin each day and I need to go back in on Tuesday for a BT but no US this time hmmmmm. Nurse also told me that my Estrogen levels had increased slightly (Tues was 143 and today it was at 360) but still down on where they would really like them to be at. Nurse also told me that my uterus lining is at 6mm so all good there and that I have 9 follies however all were smaller than 10mm She also said that she was waiting for FS to look at my FSH levels from the BT. Not sure what she meant by that but Im sure it didnt matter.
To say im disapointed with those results is an understatement. I have a feeling that were headed down the same path as cycle number 1 and that is cancellation due to poor performance. Im sorry If Im affending anyone but this just isnt fair. Why am I not responding to my Puregon shots. Thats one thing I just need to know is why? Is there something else medically wrong with me that we have missed and I need to have it looked into. Not to mention, If we were to stop IVF and try naturally, what complications would we have then??? I thought IVF was to help, not hinder. Its just not fair.
Havent mentioned to DH yet but am seriously thinking of cancelling and giving up (I know this is only number 2 but can you blame me when it all seems to be tracking in the exact same way. I have even gone for Accupuncture for this session and I am of the opinion at the moment that I dont think it did diddly squat for me). I dont know that I can keep going knowing the information I know from my failed first cycle and what it is im being told now. I feel like I already know where this is headed and Its just not fair at all.
Sorry for the very big me post. I just dont get it at all now. WHY body, Why are you doing this to me!!!!!
motherhoodhereIcome- ((hugs)) to you hun and vent away. I am sorry your feeling so bad about your results and understand perfectly where your coming from. Dont throw in the towel just yet ((hugs))
airline- your little embies are still going, try to keep positive about that sweetie ((hugs))
Coral- awesome news for you, I hope both stick, my FS refuses to transfer 2, I have asked a few times now
Meg- sounds like everything is going great for you too. Sending stickyvibes
sonyalouise- so sorry mate ((hugs))
Bonny- welcome aboard and GL
AFM- I had EPU this morning, was most unpleasent the aneathatist was horrible and I got THREE eggs, I am somewhat dissapointed with that, trying to stay positive, I know we only need one good little embie *sigh*
Hey Motherhood here i come. I just want to say that I feel for you and really hope you get some positive results soon. I'm only on my first IVF/ICSI cycle and am a slow responder. Started on 150UI Puregon. First scan only showed 1 or 2 follies in one ovary with the other ovary looking a bit dead (FS's words!). I was absolutely gutted. Dose increased to 250 UI. Fri's scan showed only 3 follies. Sigh. Dose now 450 UI. FS said with 3 follies we still have a "fighting chance", so we've decided to keep going. I get that the first cycle can be experimental, but can't help feeling anxious and disappointed all the same. It feels like I'm on this scary rollercoaster ride and I'm just hanging on. Have got another scan on Monday and am hoping we don't have to cancel this cycle. I know it's your second go, but please try not to lose heart. Hang in there, girlfriend. Have my fingers and toes crossed for you
Mitf - So glad you are coping better this time round in your 2WW...can't wait to hear your results!! GL
Coral73 - Yay!!!! 2 great embies on board!!! Bring on Nov 3rd....GL to you tooo hon!
Loops12 - So sorry to hear again of your financial status.....I really do hope that you get to sell your tractor AND calf feeding trailer and all your worries go away!!!
In the meantime I hope it happens naturally....or maybe try another IUI??? Whatever you do, i wish you the best of luck!!
Sonyalouise - sorry about the confirmed BFN...just remember, one, two or more of us get pregnent every month..next one could be you!! I certainly understand the emotional rollercoaster we're on, so take your time and relax yourself....wine, cheese etc.
Tracy - Hope EPU went well today!!! when is your ET?
Meg76 - You go girl....anyway you look at it, its still a good number. GL in your 2WW.
Bonny - I am sure you will find all the support you need right here...the ladies here are beautiful....also don't be too hard on yourself, you still have a while to go and by next week it will be a totally different story. GL
Airline - Don't worry tooo much ( easier said than done, i know ), as long as they're dividing into cells, they can still be viable pregnancies, with beautiful, healthy bubs...just try and relax until Monday and then let them get comfortable and stick....
Motherhood here i come - try and keep positive, have you spoken to a councillor?
I don't know what else to say, thinking of you!
TRACY - sorry to read about your 3 eggs...but on the other hand YOU HAVE 3 EGGS!! yaaaayyy!!!
AFM - waiting for the time to pass....come on NOVEMBER!!
I hope everyone is off enjoying their weekend rather than sitting here obsessing like I am...
For those who have been down this path before I have a question- I've had a bit of crampy-pain on and off since ET on Friday varying from a stitch-like pain similar to when you can feel yourself ovulating to vague period-type pain. Does anyone know if this is normal? I'll call the FS tomorrow morning but would love your input before then!
I haven't been down the ET before however do remember reading (hope what Im saying is right) some of the others posts where they say that cramping type feeling is normal as its the embryo implanting itself into the lining. FX hey that all goes according to plan and you get a BFP!!!
Just had to share of my three eggs two have fertilised we are still in the game. OMG I have made myself sick thinking they would tell me none had taken. Its such massive weight off my shoulders.
I know we are not in the clear just yet, but its one major hurdle crossed. All going well ET will be Tuesday
Hi ladies,
I hope you all had a great weekend and are ready to face the week ahead.
Airline-I am thinking of you I hope you get some good news tomorrow and that your weekend hasn?t been too tough.
Motherhood- I am so sorry that things have not gone your way in this cycle. I know it is daunting, frustrating and depressing to go through all this and not get the results. Don?t give up hope! When I went in for my EPU I met a woman who only ever gets one egg per ivf stim cycle! She has a. two year old ivf child and is back for second. She was on her fourth EPU for this round. I know it is not what you really want hear in terms of results of stim cycles, but I guess what I am trying to say is there is always a chance if you even have one egg. I have a friend who had 18 eggs frozen and only one was viable, as a result she now has a three year old daughter.
Tracey- My fingers are crossed for you, I hope you get a really good embie. Great news that 2 fertilised!
Bonny- welcome to the thread, I hope that increase of meds does the trick for you.
Emerald- Not long to go now, November is just around the corner.
Meg76- Cramping is definitely normal. If you are also on crinone that also causes cramping.
Coral- Wow it all sounds so promising, good luck with the TWW
AFM- I have changed my mind yet again. I had a terrible day yesterday, my poor DH had to put up with a very moody irritated wife. Today however I am a different person, talked to the nurse and decided to go straight into an un-medicated FET. The down reg process is so long that I can?t quite believe that I could be back in the TWW within three weeks. Now I just have to wait for AF??.
Update - Not feeling so positive!!
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She also said that she was waiting for FS to look at my FSH levels from the BT. Not sure what she meant by that but Im sure it didnt matter.
I was absolutely gutted. Dose increased to 250 UI. Fri's scan showed only 3 follies. Sigh. Dose now 450 UI. FS said with 3 follies we still have a "fighting chance", so we've decided to keep going. I get that the first cycle can be experimental, but can't help feeling anxious and disappointed all the same. It feels like I'm on this scary rollercoaster ride and I'm just hanging on. Have got another scan on Monday and am hoping we don't have to cancel this cycle. I know it's your second go, but please try not to lose heart. Hang in there, girlfriend. Have my fingers and toes crossed for you 
I am sure you will find all the support you need right here...the ladies here are beautiful....also don't be too hard on yourself, you still have a while to go and by next week it will be a totally different story. GL
yaaaayyy!!!
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