Morning girls. So DH and I have had time to get our heads around the different cycle I seem to be having and I think that its a good thing (got to stay positive right???). The other ones have not worked so maybe I need a shake up and get a few AWESOME eggs. Who needs another 17??? We only need enough for a transfer and a FET in December if need be as we are pulling the pin and moving on. That will make 14 months pretty much back to back cycles with a pg thrown in the mix. I am done. DH is done. And the bank account is soooooo done! Just going to sit back and let the universe decide if we are meant to be birth parents this life time. I am sick of pushing and controlling it all. Well, the little control I do have anyway lol. So we are holding our breaths and waiting to see what the universe decides. If no earthside bub for us I am going to be mighty p****ed though

To all you girls creeping up to 40 dont let it get too close before you decide to move on and think about donor eggs/ donor sperm. Knowing what I know now, I probably would have gone straight for donor eggs. I know its not the same, but i figure i can sure love a bub growing in my tummy, even if its not my egg. My desire for a baby far outweighs the tricky bit of it not being my egg. My ego got in the way though and I thought since i was undiagnosed it would happen. My BFF went through IVF 8 times, slow swimmers, endo, arthritis, you name it they have it against them and now have a precious DD. Last stim, one embryo, bled all through the pregnancy but now happy and healthy 3 year old. I thought if she can get pg then so can I. Same FS even. But here we are looking down the barrel of it not happening. *sigh*

FX it may still happen for us yet. We are still technically still not out of the running. So come on universe...BRING IT ON!!!