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:goodluck: Friday 21st September 2012 :goodluck:
Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Emma - :angel: - taking a break
Kerbear - taking a break
Myturn - :angel:
Sarah4Kurt - waiting for AF
Me4ever - CD1
Miloro - CD??
Andie - CD3
Wishanddream - CD7
N2L - CD9
Nire - CD9
Emerald Star - CD12
Juniper - CD13
Waiting for Transfer
Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ek-Wait-2012-7)
Vic261 - CD23 0dp5dt
Krikkit - CD24 7dp3dt
Blossom - CD28 6dp5dt
J.Bear - CD24 8dp5dt
Got Their BFP in September :confetti:
JoeSpratt - +b/w 15/9 @13dpo
Mrs Mac - +HPT 13/9, +b/w 19/9 @16dpo
Saw the FS this morning. Not at my best as I only had 2 hours sleep... but he said not to worry about the weekend issue, that there was "wriggle room" for the timing... Hmmm... Not sure what to think about that, to be honest. The one positive thing he did say was that they will be doing transfers on the public holiday, so I don't have to worry about a 3-day window of bad timing, just the usual 2 days... He shot me down on my request to confirm O after (he thinks) it has happened, saying he thinks it's a waste of time and then accused me of thinking I know more than his "30 years of experience" and "highest FET success rate in the unit"... Gah!! That's the downside to having someone with lots of experience and confidence - the ego! The other thing he said was that if everything isn't spot on, he'll cancel the cycle. That is simultaneously reassuring and worrying - reassuring because that's really the attitude we need to adopt, but worrying because I know there are so many potential reasons for cancelling and I'd have preferred to hear there were ways to avoid them... Anyway, I have to phone for b/w results at lunch, but am expecting to be told to come back in on Monday for the next lot.
Apologies in advance if I don't make much sense today. I'm probably going to be sleep-walking through it... :asleep:
Hi everyone, so sorry to hear those of you have got your period and were really hoping to be pregnant and those of you who hav had arguments with ur hubbies it sucks. My hubby came hm from work yesterday and told me " em you know how i told u a girl from work had been sick all week ?,well shes pregnant and shes 19." my heart sank. Hubby said that he congratulated her but also told her that he was jealous as we have been trying for 12 months and this young girl didnt even want it at first.
wishanddream26 - I know it sucks when you hear things like that, but the reality is, that, that goes on around us everyday.....but you just have to remember that lots of women on here thought that it would never happen for them and it has....yes it is harder for us, but you know what...its really all in gods hands. Cheer up and think positive thoughts.
Hi girls, quick one to let you know that I am PUPO :leap: I am happy again.
It was a big day and you can read about it here https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...saga-continues
Be back later for persies xxx
Hi Emerald Star sorry been busy and haven't been able to jump on! I don't mind sharing especially if it helps!
It's all a bit confusing I have been on/off lots of diff meds!
Basically the last 2 cycles I have noticed a big diffeerence in the quality of embryo and they have grown each day a lot better and def better grades!
I believe the coq1o x 600mg and dhea 100mg are the biggest contributing factor. I really don't know about Luveris but I have been on this only for last 2 cycles!
With regards to growth hormones I think it def helps give them a boost.
This cycle I only had 5 eggs this time and they where grade 3 mainly 1 x 4 but in the end blast cc and a morula with nothing to freeze.
Last cycle 5 embies best grades I ever got grade 3-5 ended up blast bc grade and early morula.
Prior to that cycle in jan really bad but I don't think I was on saizen?.. Only coq10 150 and dhea 50 out of 5 eggs 3 fertilised didn't grow well transferred early grade 3 7 cell on day 4
Cycle before that 12 eggs 6 fert ended up day 5 transfer morula and 12 cell compacting grade 3!
I think really my feeling is all of the things you are thinking of doing help and I believe mine are getting better with age, still not bloody getting there but developing and fertilizing better each day but in the end I don't know what I need to do to give them that extra boost!
Good luck I hope the info helps x
Emerald star It has def helped with my fertilisation both times 5 out of 5 too!
Thanks everyone for understanding... Life sucks with fertile people around us... Wish they could feel for once what it's like to be TTC for longer than a month or two ;) (Or is that mean, as we do know how horrid and stressful it can be... Maybe only for the ones that keep rubbing it in?)
Wicked witch showed up today. Luckily a day after my brother's wedding, so I didn't feel all awful. Holiday is still going well, only a week to go, time has flown past. As I look on Belly belly I now can't wait to get back and start our FET, I want to be PUPO again...
Hugs for everyone in a dip.
PS Vic I read your story! Wow, that must have been such a shock! Fingers crossed it will freeze, just in case. But I bet you won't need it and this will be your lucky month and you'll fall preggo with these little blobs inside you! Special hugs for you and your husband.
Yay for beIng pupo Vic!
Me4ever, maybe just the rub it in ones. There are lots of kind super fertile women out there.
AFM, did my very first gonal F injection last night. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I did screw up the first time though and didn't properly take the cap off so I just squirted it on my skin! Dork. Now I'm waiting at the train station, heading to the airport for my trip to china. I checked I had my passport once, I checked I had my meds about 20 times. :)Will be offline for the next several days but can't wait to catch up when I come back.
Take care everyone. Wishing you wondeful fertility and stickiness.
PS juniper can you please put me in the waiting list.
Oh crap, I just realised that at this rate I'm going to be over 37 before I have my first. I did it all right, I got educated, had a career, bought a house (by myself!) THEN get into a relationship - and still only 29.... Tried to start a family at 33, and now I'm nearly 36... I've just had a miscarriage and there's no baby in sight. If we do our next cycle in jan/feb I may just get a baby in while 36.... I just feel so old and over it and like its never going to happen.
And I hate exercise..... 37 just sounds so old to have my first.... I don't even think about it for other people... But i don't want to be one if those out of touch older mothers. I hate LTTTC....
:goodluck: Saturday 22nd September 2012 :goodluck:
Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Emma - :angel: - taking a break
Kerbear - taking a break
Myturn - :angel:
Sarah4Kurt - waiting for AF
Me4ever - CD2
Miloro - CD??
Andie - CD4
Wishanddream - CD8
N2L - CD10
Nire - CD10
Emerald Star - CD13
Juniper - CD14
Waiting for Transfer
Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ek-Wait-2012-7)
Vic261 - CD24 1dp5dt
Krikkit - CD25 8dp3dt
Blossom - CD29 7dp5dt
J.Bear - CD25 9dp5dt
Got Their BFP in September :confetti:
JoeSpratt - +b/w 15/9 @13dpo
Mrs Mac - +HPT 13/9, +b/w 19/9 @16dpo
Freaking out a little and of course this happens on a Saturday afternoon, when I have to wait the longest time possible to ask my FS about it... CD14 today, yesterday's b/w indicated E2 starting to rise (448 pmol/L), acupuncture 4 hours ago (she did the Ov treatment with the tens machine) and when I went to the toilet to do today's OPK (BFN), I found EWCM streaked with blood - about 50% clear/50% red. This has never happened before and I don't know what to think? I've had a bit of spotting at O time in a few cycles, but this was far more than that. If I didn't know better, I'd say AF was starting?!
:help:
Juniper did you dtd last night? Sometimes you can aggrivate the cervix. Apart from that not too sure. Have you had a chance to talk to your fs
No, we haven't DTD since last cycle (not for lack of DH trying, but I've been tired and cranky). Had planned to start today since I'm gearing up to O and now not sure what to do. No way of speaking to the FS before Monday morning. :(
Just went back and had a look at the OPK and it's got some colour to it. Think I'll test again before bed tonight, but thinking I could get the +opk tomorrow...
Miloro-i understand where ur coming from.i did my gonal f injections last week.i stuffed up my first injections too. But i had an ultrasound today and the injections worked i have 3 or 4 eggs that look like they will make it to marurity.and i am having a intrauterine insemination next week.
Do it anyway. DH will be happy if nothing else lol.
Hopefully it settles down.
:goodluck: Sunday 23rd September 2012 :goodluck:
Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Emma- :angel: - taking a break
Kerbear - taking a break
Myturn - :angel:
Sarah4Kurt - waiting for AF
Me4ever - CD3
Miloro - CD??
Andie - CD5
Wishanddream - CD9
N2L - CD11
Nire - CD11
Emerald Star - CD14
Juniper - CD15
Waiting for Transfer
Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ek-Wait-2012-7)
Vic261 - CD25 2dp5dt
Krikkit - CD26 9dp3dt
Blossom - CD30 8dp5dt
J.Bear - CD26 10dp5dt
Got Their BFP in September :confetti:
JoeSpratt - +b/w 15/9 @13dpo
Mrs Mac - +HPT 13/9, +b/w 19/9 @16dpo
Hi girls, sorry for the lack of posts. I think if you all the time. I have been hiding quietly in the corner... IVF is kicking my butt. I dont want to be a negative Nancy but I am soooo sick of injections and hormones.
Follies are growing slowly. Hopefully tomorrow's scan will show some good growth over the weekend.
Highlight of my birthday on Friday was rushing out of Ballet at interval to inject in the bathroom. The things we do!
Hopefully one day it'll make a funny story to tell my child.
Love to you all xx
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Emma & Sarah: big hugs to you both
MrsMac: congrats on your BFP!!!
vic261: congrats on being PUPO!!! FX it is a sticky one for you
myturn: you are only as old as you feel. I was similar to you, got a good education, pursued my career, met the man of my dreams but only managed to have DD when I was 36 and now FX get my second when I am 40. Believe and it will come true xx
Krikkit: how's the sickness going? Hoping it is subsiding so you can feel a smig normal
Hi to everyone else, hope all is well
AFM: waiting on my 7 week scan to see a little heartbeat. Some days I can believe it has happened especially with the sore boobies and light headedness I have been getting (thankfully not too much m/s) but others I'm scared to even go to the loo in case I see something I don't want to see
Aaarrrgghhh I am freaking out about the puppy dog :( crying my eyes out! It was such a bad decision, I'm so stupid. So much work with a toddler.
:goodluck: Monday 24th September 2012 :goodluck:
Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Emma- :angel: - taking a break
Kerbear - taking a break
Myturn - :angel: - FS app 29 Oct
Sarah4Kurt - waiting for AF
Me4ever - CD4
Miloro - CD??
Andie - CD6
Wishanddream - CD10
N2L - CD12
Nire - CD12
Emerald Star - CD15
Juniper - CD16
Waiting for Transfer
Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ek-Wait-2012-7)
Vic261 - CD26 3dp5dt
Krikkit - CD27 10dp3dt
Blossom - CD31 9dp5dt
J.Bear - CD27 11dp5dt
Got Their BFP in September :confetti:
JoeSpratt - +b/w 15/9 @13dpo
Mrs Mac - +HPT 13/9, +b/w 19/9 @16dpo
Hear, hear!!! Stay positive myturn, i had first DS at 39 via IVF then 2nd DS at 40 was a natural miracle! It does happen. You are still in there with plenty of time to grow and love some beautiful babies!!! Good luck sweetie.:
Myturn - I third Motion that... Just like Joespratt and jayejaye, I had my FIRST DD at 42 and now I'm trying for #2 at 44!!! I believe it can happen (hopefully before the financial strain) and if i fall pregnant this year I will be 45 when i give birth! (now thats old in child bearing years...but i still have hope..) hang in there..it will happen. Good Luck
I don't believe it's as easy as saying if you want it enough or believe it hard enough or just stay positive that you will end up with a live child at the end of all this. Does that mean that those who it doesn't happen for didn't want it enough?
I hope and pray that we all get what we want but the horrible reality is that some of us won't, no matter how much we want it. But it won't be because we weren't positive enough or we didn't believe.
Hi ladies,
Myturn, sometimes we don't have a choice in becoming older mothers. It could be that we meet our partner later in life (like me) or it could takes quite a few goes at IVF or naturally before we get pg. I think we have to believe that it will happen and when it does we will be the most fabulous mums we can be. And I don't think you'll be an 'out of touch' mum even if you become an older mum hun :) Hang in there lovely and take a deep breath (like me!!). xoxoxox
Awww Kikkit, so you got the puppy? Remember they only stay little for a while but if if gets too much you could always find it a new home. When I was about 14 we got a puppy because I saw one in a pet shop and I just had to have it. My mum was saying no but agreed in the end on the condition that I look after it all the time. The poor thing got left home all alone when my parents went to work and my brother and I to school. He used to cry so much during the day some of the neighbours complained so it had to go. So my parents made me take him to the RSPCA. I was so heartbroken, but there was nothing we could do. We had a lot of elderly neighbours :(
Joe, GL with your scan!
Nire, sorry to hear IVF is becoming a pain in the butt! GL for your scan today hun and Happy Belated Birthday for Friday :)
Wishanddream, GL for your IUI this week :crossfingers:
Juniper, GL with your cycle this month hun, I hope you get to catch that egg :crossfingers:
Hi to everyone else!
AFM, we are having some rough time again in the house. It started with the virus I had last Wednesday, then on Friday night after DS's bath I noticed some cluster of small bumps on his upper legs, tummy, back and little bit on his face. I happened to use a new bubble bath that night with some essential oils, so I thought he had a reaction to that. The following night the same thing happened but I didn't use that new bubble bath. Then last night before the bath, he had the cluster of spots as well (so they would have been there during the day, but I didn't notice them at nappy changes) but he was also burning up. So I thought maybe chicken pox????? The thing is, he's had a runny nose all day yesterday so I thought the temperature was tied in with that. So off to the doc's today. DS was so upset after his bath, he ended up in our bed, tossing and turning all night and burning up. Thank God for panadol.
b xxx
To be honest, this is why I hadn't commented before now. With the whole AMH thing, I can't help but feel that time is ticking away and worry that I'll hit menopause before we get our BFP. I can't imagine we'll still be TTC at 45 because I can't imagine I'll have any eggs left by that stage. I don't even know if we'll be able to TTC at 40... I couldn't, with any sincerity, offer the encouragement that was sought when I don't feel that hope myself, so figured it was better to keep my fears to myself and let others provide the needed support.:
Sorry to post this and run, but I'm at work and it took a while to find the words to try to say what I meant and (hopefully) not be misinterpreted. I'd hate to upset anyone. I'll check back later today after I get the b/w results from this morning.
Juniper, I completely understand what you are saying as well as everyone else's comments as I am in same boat as you. I don't think it should upset anyone as I believe we all know in the back of our minds that all the hoping and praying for it may just not quite be enough.
I think it is good to be positive and we need to encourage everyone to be but I also know in the back of my mind that after the next cycle, depending on the outcome DH and myself could be facing making some serious decisions about ttc that could break my heart forever.
Hope you are all traveling well I check in everyday and read up xo
What I forgot to add before is that positive thinking won't change the outcome of your cycle, but it will completely change your experience of your cycle. It's a quality of life thing and it's definitely something worth pursuing, which is another reason why I wouldn't want to bring anyone down. I think it's very valuable, just not essential.
W&D, I recently had a co-worker (mid-20s, so not as bad) tell me she was pg with an (initially) unwanted oops. It was doubly hard since she told me when she was 10wks and I couldn't help but immediately think "that's when we found out we lost our baby in January". It's hard to get these bombshells dropped on us sometimes. Glad to hear your cycle is going well. FX for the IUI!
Nire, Happy belated-Birthday!
Miss.B, hope you're feeling better soon. :hug:
Afm, b/w showed E2 rising further (1252), so should see LH surge in the next few days. Finding the lack of sleep brutal. I had to get up at 4.45am this morning to get to the monitoring but didn't get to sleep until almost 1am (thank you insomnia :wall:) and then I woke at 4.35am before the alarm, so lost an extra 10 mins of precious sleep! At least it was better than Thursday night (only 2 hours). Proving to be a long day at work though. Hoping I get to sleep early tonight or tomorrow's trip to the clinic (another 5am start) may ruin me... Wishing I drank coffee right about now as I'm running out of steam. Arrived at work at 6.45am and trying to make it through to 6pm so I have less to do at home during the rest of the week...
I can't comment on AMH - I reckon its a load of poo! mine is 2.4 yet respond well but get bad quality eggs. so I am a bit watevs about it! Just glad I still get eggs I suppose. I am a bit miffed my FS has basically told me I will get menopause early... don't wish it on me dude!!
Need some advice from the LTTC-ers with my bt levels does anyone or can anyone decipher them yet? They seemed to start of mega high, maybe from OHSS???
18/9 E 4204 P 268
21/9 E 4571 P 272
24/9 E 2765 P 122 (today they want me to start pessaries??????)
Final BT is Friday and I had a neg HPT today...... and some lovely cramping like AF is on her way, but was re-assured my levels are too high for that to happen :wall:
Krikkit, I've always had 5-7 eggs (last time was 5 eggs with 450iu of gonal-f), so the low AMH was expected in my case. I'm not clear on what the E2 numbers should be in the 2ww. I know they are meant to be elevated, but I don't know how much. You might have to do some searching for links between E2 and OHSS? Just keep in mind that they use different units in America (pg/ml), so if you're reading any pages/articles from there you need to multiply their numbers by 3.671 to get the equivalent in our units (pmol/l). That progesterone level is still nice and high, but maybe they're starting you on pessaries because of the drop?
https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...highlight=Ohss
This might be of interest Krikkit
A quick one girls...
We've cancelled the cycle. Only one follie had grown large enough to mature. Others were way off. Will trigger tonight and dtd for the next few nights just in case.
Will need to up dosage and try again in a couple of months.
I'm devastated.
Will be hiding in the background thinking of you all x
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I'm really sorry to hear that Nire :(
It's not unusual to have the first cycle cancelled as many FS look at it as a bit of a practice run where they can experiment with dosages, etc. Doesn't help if you're the patient :( The truth is they don't know how your body will respond.
What dose where you on?
Nirenotrom - I am so sorry I know how devastating it is to have a cancelled cycle. Here's hoping they can give you a better protocol next time that works for your body. Sending you a big hug.
Missb - I hope ds is feeling better today. You have certainly had no luck with sickness this year in your family you poor thing.
My turn - I hear you with the age thing cause we are the same age. When you have results that show you are heading down the menopause path it makes it even scarier.
I hate this ttc thing soooo much as well.
Here for you all anytime, just thought I would pop in and say hi. Sorry I haven't done persies for everyone...will try better next time.
Sticky vibes to you all xo
Thanks ladies :grouphug: It turned out the bumps on DS's skin are flea bites, WTF???? We don't have any pets :( Doc said she thinks it could be just contact with people with pets, fleas jump! So very relieved it's not the pox. He does have a cold virus so lots of attention is on poor fella right now and I'm getting tired, not to mention I now have a runny nose and an itchy throat, the cc sucks!
Nire, so sorry to hear your cycle has been cancelled, big hugs sweets :(
Oh and my two cents worth on the positivity comment, I do think that although it won't guarantee a baby (after all there are no guaranees in life) it will put you in the right head space and give you the best chance possible in conceiving.
Oh I agree Miss B, it's good to try to be positive while cycling (although it gets harder to keep smiling when you're onto your 8th, 9th, 10th plus cycle with no BFPs :( )
I just think it's not helpful to say "it will happen, just stay positive" iykwim.
Ya, I know what you mean n2l, I have said it myself before :redface: I can only imagine how much harder it is to stay positive after so many cycles, so big hugs hun. I really really really hope it happens for you some day soon xxx
I hope it happens for ALL of us MissB :hug:
hi ladies, havent been on much lately but been trying to keep up and reading most days... been having a little timeout and trying to decide what to do next. had FS appt today, looks like we will be doing PGD next. i think i am ok about doing PGD, it seems to be the logical thing to do after the amount of stims/transfers i have done without success. the cost & the prospect of having nothing to transfer is a bit scary though... but we will at least find out if our great looking embryos are in fact great, or actually 'abnormal'. i start the pill today, epu isnt until november... seems so far away.
sorry to hear your cycle got cancelled, nire. that sucks after all the hard work you put in with the injections etc. :hug:
miss b - flea bites are the worst, they drive me insane. so itchy. hope your little one is ok. xx
on the positivity thing, i think you do what you need to do to get through. if thinking positively works for you - fabulous. if it doesnt - fabulous also. personally, i find i am up and down with each cycle, some cycles i feel great and optimistic. some cycles i just dont feel 'it' from day 1. hasnt altered the outcome for me yet. i wish i could start out each cycle with a positive outlook, but if previous history is any indication of future outcomes... its a bit too difficult for me. atm i try and stay somewhere in between - realistically hopeful?! cautiously optimistic?! somewhere there... :)