Hi everyone,

I has been a while since I posted, I have been lying low for a while, but still checking in to see how you are all going. I am trying to get my focus off TTC a little bit, and am feeling much more relaxed now that it has stopped taking over my entire life (sort of, as I am still here reading and posting).

Gosh it is busy in here at the moment, how exciting, lots going on.

Lilmisss - Glad your lap went well

Brooke2550 - Wow, 20 eggs sounds great. Glad to hear they are not cancelling the cycle, an E2 of 8000 is high. My last stim cycle I had 21 follies and my E2 on day 12 was 22,500, way over, so they just went to EPU but did not go to ET. I was really upset, but at least I got a good number of follies, 15 went on to fertilise and I did FETs from there.

Abbie - I hope your EPU on the 1st went well, I hope I have the date right.

Bel - Glad to see you are doing so well, and great news re seeing the counsellor. I haven't heard of your protocol, I just know this will be right one for you and all will go to plan. Looks like we will be back in the TWW together again. Yay, I can't wait. for you.

Rach - I love acupuncture too, though I am feeling a little disheartended with my current lady, I have been seeing her for almost 2 years, and each ET she seems more and more unsure of what she should be doing at each stage, like she doesn't want to stuff it up. I am looking into the one that the FS is recommending instead.

KellyD - Good luck for your scan tomorrow, great that it is early so you know what is going on first thing. Hope everything is as it should be. I know what you mean re fatigue, I am wreaked this month, can hardly keep my eyes open all day.

Muppity - Great news re your ET, how exciting to have a blastie on board. I am trying for blasties this cycle, fingers crossed I get there. Good luck in your TWW and for your BFP

Jodie - Hope you are well, where are you in your cycle?

Neptune - Great numbers for your EPU, fingers crossed for your ET tomorrow, I hope this month is the one!

JBM - Hope all is going well and good luck for your FET on the 13th. If my cycle goes to plan and I get to blastie I am schedule for my ET on the 13th also, which is very exciting as it is DH birthday that day too. Hope that makes it a lucky day for us both.

Azzrenae - Good luck for your FET on Saturday. I have heard some great results for FETs, unfortunately not for me. But don't let my experience worry you, I am putting it down to OHSS on my last stim cycle that I went to EPU, and I had slightly slow growing and slightly fragmented embies. Fingers crossed for us both for this next one.

TLO - I hope your FET this month brings you your BFP. I am unexplained too, and it is endlessly frustrating. for you!

Wishingbaby - What day of your cycle are you? I had a BT yesterday for Day 7, my E2 was 350.

Ruth8 - for you for this month. I know what you mean about not wanting to go to work, it is hard to think of anything else but this, and the drugs really wear you down. I have been worst hit this month. Good luck with your acupunture too!

Smithy - I agree with KellyD, I wish I had half of your spirit and postivity, thanks for rubbing it off on us. And good on you for sticking to your guns re your embies. I hope these 2 embies are the ones. Yikes, what if they both stick?

Paula - Fingers crossed for you for this month coming

Jodes76 - I hope you are doing well. It took me 3 years to get to my first IVF cycle. Part of me wishes I had started much earlier, but the other part is a bit fatalistic, and thinks it is all part of the plan, journey, what ever you want to call it. I am not sure if I would have been ready back then. It is only early on for you, I hope not much longer at all until you get your BFP. The only think I would have done differently is that I would have worked on my diet from the start. I am a big believer in this, and can say that only now have I never been so healthy. It might have been different for me if I had have done this from the start.

I hope I haven't missed anyone, if so apologies, I wish you all the best for this month, cycle, transfer, TWW and BTs.

AFM, I am Day 8 of my 3rd stim cycle, I have 19 follies growing, but all slightly under size, about 7 - 8 mm. FS has uped my FSH to 100 for the next 5 days (I was on 75). If all goes to plan EPU is on Wed 8th and I am going to try to go to blastie, so ET on the Mon 13th, which is a good day for me as it is DHs birthday. I was really interested to hear that FS said I had some PCOS tendencies, though not sure if this is better than an 'unexplained' diagnosis.

I have made the decision that this will be my last cycle for a while, we have decided to take 12 months off, I was getting a little too crazy, and as I have said before, this has taken over my whole life. It can't go on like this. And just knowing that I am taking a break has taken all the pressure off, so I'm looking at this cycle as a bit of an experiment. Firstly to see if all my hard wook with diet etc will have an impact on my embryo quality, secondly to see if I can get the right number of eggs picked up without OHSS, and thirdly to see if I can get to blastie. Once I get there I will worry about them sticking. So even though I am not really holding any hope for a BFP, I feel much more positive and in a better frame of mind. If this makes sense???

Is this a record for the longest post? LOL. Thinking of you all, praying for you all