Ok, learnt a valuable lesson...don't stay from BB for longer than you have to!!!! I left it on Friday, and tried to catch up last night when I returned from a long weekend away, but was too tired to read it all and reply! I think the easiest thing is to reply to the bits I can see...which is last 24 hours, sorry if I miss out a personal...

EMERALD - my dear...so sorry and big hugs, you've had a turbulent weekend it seems. as someone else said...don't feel like you don't deserve that BFP straight away.... I wish that there was no need for this website, but as there are soo many of us in the same boat, it is a godsend and even if noone reads/responds, I often feel better to pour out my heart on here, esp. if I think DH has had enough for the day!!

MELTTC - I've had CM at various points of cycle...don't worry about it too much. I've never had synarel dribble down nozzle, but certainly have pumped it and not felt/tasted it. I sometimes do it again, and take note of any extra pumps. There's 60 sprays to a bottle of mine, so plenty of extras.

SAL79 - you've already had various answers to your qstn but I'll throw in my tuppence
- we found it useful to talk to the scientist at our clinic...they offered for her to pop in and chat to us about the procedure from her point of view. it was great and meant that we understood how for example it was more complicated to freeze a 5 day blastie as opposed to a 2/3 day embie (more cells to draw liquid out of in order to freeze) plus other situations. It's a small clinic, so maybe not available everywhere, but worth asking.

- remember that statistics they give you will poss. be the 'best stats' collated over a certain period, not always a true representation of success rate. my clinic don't give them out as they believe that it's difficult to give a true representation as each couple have a different situation ie. age, problems, etc

- the first cycle was like anything new, we sat, were told, asked questions, went away to process etc. Now on our 3rd we know what we want. That's not to say we know it all, but for example between cycles I wanted minimum amount of time, and I know they can do a 'pill crossover' cycle where they put you on the pill then take you off to induce a bleed, so I asked for that as soon as my last cycle failed.

- the first amount of Gonal F (injection and can be called by another name- but basically it's what makes you produce multiple follicles) is a stab in the dark to see how you react. They will be conservative as hyperstimulation is nasty and as they told me you can end up in intensive care and they want to avoid that at all costs.

I'm sure there's more...but you get the gist. Any good clinic will tell you to call if you have any queries...and there's always BB

MUMMAWANNABE - not sure if anyone's answered this, but as I mentioned above to Sal79, when my 'inbetween' bleed didn't occur between stim cycle 1 and 2, they put me on pill for 3 weeks, then took me off to get withdrawl bleed. So after 2 not working I asked for it straight away, which meant min. amount of time between cycles. Not sure if this is the same between stim and FET.

CORAL - great the bloating's gone down...which scan are you having? is the first scan since injections started or 2nd to see how much they've grown before EPU? I had first yesterday and am quite happy. fingers crossed for you girl!

AFM - well thank you to all who asked about our party on Saturday. We actually had a long weekend away with about 12 other people and a big birthday party to start it off. We had a ball, I barely thought about TTC other than taking my drugs and I hate to say it, but I reckon it's cos there was not one baby or child there the whole time. In fact, noone there even had any to talk about!!!!! Incredible and blissful. DH got very very very drunk, and was sick at party, but I looked after him and he was alright .... 24 hours later! He did get a bit emotional and talked about TTC which was sad, but other than that had an awesome time.

For anyone that remembered/or cared....my killer shoes were a hit and although my feet were sore....I LOVE them!

We came back to reality and yesterday had first scan since injections and have about 12 follies...although from experience a few are too small to be considered any good...unless they get a good growth spurt. EPU is one week today and all is good in the world.

hello to everyone else that I normally say hi to....big hugs.


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