Nix - I don't know you, and could walk past you on the street without knowing it, but I'm sitting at my pc tears streaming down my face having read your post. I'm so sorry, noone can make you feel better, in fact nothing actually makes you feel better, but be safe in the knowledge that there's a circle of girls on here who feel a real connection and understanding as to what you're going through. take care, and take all the love your furbaby offers.