ladies...sorry very impersonal post, feeling blue. I would like to welcome all the newbies, and wish luck/congrats to everyone's positive posts I've read.

We're doing a blasty transfer on Monday. They harvested 9 eggs...we got 6 fertilised, and today I got a call from the scientist saying that they'd like them to be between 6-8 cells and mine was a 'mixed bag'. I've got 2 at 7 cells, 3 at 5 cells and 1 at 4 cells.

I can't help feeling immediate disappointment, worry and sadness. I called DH at work and told him, and when he asked how I felt I just said that I'd be soo disappointed if we get no transfer or only one to freeze, cos this cycle's knocked me about waay more than the the first 2. I'm still not right after EPU on Wednesday. And then I thought I'd treat myself to a cup of coffee, and chipped my favourite mug ridiculous I know...but I just feel really down all of a sudden. Got and invite to 'non-baby' baby shower (ie. a select gathering...but same difference)today...and have accepted as it's in my 2ww and I thought I'd feel ok. I can always pull out.

awwwww. sorry. I was fine till that call. please, please let 3rd time be lucky.

I hope I've not brought anyone's mood down. I just needed to express my feelings. thank you