Willow - i'm so glad Sushee's advice has made you feel better about where you're at. i know it's nature to compare our own situations with other people, but everyone is different, and you have to look at the positives - you have follies - whether a fwe or a lot, the meds are obviously working - so you're on your way! good luck with i all - i'll be stalking you to see how you go!