Losing yourself, losing friends...

[blossom73]

Hi Possums sending you big hugs. I know exactly how you are feeling as i feel like that too at the moment and its a hard place to come out of! My DH and i have been fighting a little bit too which is really unusual and the toll of the LTTTC is hitting us hard!
I am now trying daily to shift my mindset and we are also looking into adoption as well so i can try to release the fear of what if this doesnt happen and to know there are other options out there (obviously not quite the same though).
I am definately not the same carefree person that i used to be but i am definately a whole lot stronger and much more grateful for a lot of the things in my life.
We do attend and play a big part in our friends and families childs lives but i tell you sometimes its hard and you feel like a fish out of water but in those times my dh and i get stronger and have each other to vent.
We both get counselling and healings at the moment which also seems to be helping us.
I wish you lots of luck on your journey and sending you lots of babydust.
x

[Possums]

Thanks ladies for sharing your stories and the things you have done which have helped. I have had counselling in the past, but think it might help again at this stage.
Sending you all the very best also xx

[gorgeousgirl222]

(((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

[CrazyCat]

Possums, I honestly think the worst thing you can do to yourself is look in the mirror and say 'its all ok' when you just want to crumple in a ball and sob your heart out. Being true about how you are feeling is a very admirable thing to do and at least lets you have control over something. Having said that I agree with Kaybee about forcing yourself to see people, friends whoever makes you happy and its often nowhere near as bad as you get yourself worked up into believing. Laugh, live and have no regrets honey. My ticker may not reflect it but 371 days ago my miracle came earthside after 5 agonising years. I was in a blackhole and like you, an awfully dark place....I know its much easier for me to say now but I look at those 5 years and I missed out on so so so much and I regret that. I missed my BFFs kids, visiting her in hospital after she birthed, I missed 1st bday parties and christenings and I look now and feel incredibly saddened I didnt see these events. I guess what Im trying to say is dont miss out on your life now waiting for your miracle to come, live like it will be here any second! Big big you are an incredibly strong and amazing person to endure LTTTC xxxx

Had to say, Loved your reply. Great hearing it from that perspective.

[Lily Dust]

Had to say, Loved your reply. Great hearing it from that perspective.

Naaaaaw, thanks hun, what a lovely thing to say