This can be a very difficult and isolating journey as we all know. Lately I have been more aware of the fact that I have distanced myself from some friends, and lost others, as a result of the journey we are on and the things we have experienced.
I have also changed as a person, in some ways I am stronger and more sensitive and understanding; in other ways I am more bitter and angry and impatient...and less carefree and happy. I miss the old me and the way I used to feel about things.
So often I am basically numb or unhappy, even though I try so hard to throw myself into my life and things I enjoy, or time with DH etc. And I am much less social.
I know I am not alone. I guess I just look forward to a time when I can live life in a happier state and feel more positive emotions.
I worry what will happen if we can't have a baby. What then? It's too much to consider just now.
Just a vent really, but I'd also like to hear other people's experiences and how they have worked through these things, it always helps.
Thanks.