Oh Sunbeam- sorry the usual sun isn't shining for you, its so, so hard to keep going day after day when there's no guarentee. I don't blame you, we all feel this way sometimes, esp in the tww when theres so much pressure I hope you get your christmas miracle ( or at the very least a good af thats gives you hope to keep going, but I want a bfp for you so much you know). I am quite stressed this tww and fantasised when I was out for dinner last night that I snatched a glass of wine out of someone's hand and sculled it.

Tasha- the dye test may be the answer to your prayers, I know its hard to spend money near christmas but if you put it in to medicare quickly you might get more back. Good news about the gym!

afm- I am so anxious about this tww I cannot sleep at night which is making me feel even more stressed. I had a lot of strong cramping yesterday crossing my fingers its a good sign but who knows. Hurry up BT, I am going to buy a bottle of wine or champers to drink if I get a bfn, its cruel to have to not drink before christmas when everyone else is!