Hi lovely ladies,
Just popped in to say hi. I have just been taking some time for myself and getting sorted after my housemate moved out on the weekend. I am off on my cruise on saturday, starting to get a bit excited. Saw my FS yesterday and he has agreed to do one more stim cycle in Nov but agrees that should be it as it would be a waste to do anymore with Donor daddy's sperm being so poor. I am still thinking of you all and I will be popping in to see how you are all going and be back properly in Nov.
Special hugs to Ferrals for thursdays outcome, hoping and praying for awesome news.
Sunbeam - Hope you have an awesome time on your cruise and everything crossed for Nov!
Ferrals - Still have everything crossed over here for you....Looking forward to hearing the good news in a few days!
AFM - Thanks for the kind words everyone, I've spent the last few days rearranging the entire house to keep my mind off things, also getting ready for the IL's to come stay *shudder* anyone have a spare room for me to hide in for a couple of days lol. I raged at my SIL a little today, she was saying how a friend of her DH is trying for a baby with his wife but with no luck so far and she had said to them that maybe they were just trying too hard and should take a more casual approach like they did..WTF? I told her that would have probably been hurtful and that she should consider herself very lucky to be able to get pregnant so easy considering a lot of very deserving people struggle to conceive. I've packed up all our baby stuff/clothes/gear we still had after moving to NSW, I know 10 or so pregnant women at the moment but I don't think I'm ready to give it all away just yet. Had a mini break down packing jumpsuit away...pathetic!
Anyway hope you're all well and best of luck with your current and up coming cycles, we need some BIG FAT STICKY POSITIVES in here very very soon!
Damprye - So pleased to hear that you are happy again.
Alice - I often found the mundane things like going to the market to be harder to bear than anything else because I am surrounded by all those little things I was going to buy (or not buy) if I were pregnant. I will be interested to hear what your acupuncturist says. Mine recently sent me a letter saying she was going on maternity leave and was so excited and wouldn't be sure when she would be back because she wasn't sure how she would cope as a Mum etc. I thought "hmmmm, nice for you, but perhaps you could have sent your clients with fertility problems a different letter that didn't gush over your baby". I got over that within a day or so though and wish her all the best.
AFM - I am in the process of booking this holiday to Bali. We are organising travel insurance and I double checked that we would be covered if I were pregnant as I told the lady we are TTC. She told me how many clients get pregnant on holidays as they finally relax. So I told her I didn't have any trouble getting pregnant I just lose them all. Why do I always have to be so honest about it? I probably just made her feel bad but that wasn't my intention.
Sunbeam-thanks for the cyber hugs and enjoy your much deserved cruise before your next round of IVF.
Tomanyshoes-I have all my baby stuff packed to and cant bring myself to go through it all yet they even still has all the price tags on them as Abbi never got to where them but i am hoping this weekend i can unpack them all and dream a little.
I hope you will get to unpack your baby things real soon.
Alice-I still go to the shopping centre the furthest away from where i live as i dont want to run into anyone i know with babies and i certainly dont want anyone to see my belly just yet because what if i dont have one i a few weeks time it's awful how us women think but after a loss we just cant seem to help it.
I hope you are feeling yourself real soon and you dont have to put off that frosty for to long,
Clairsmummy-Oooh hoping for a BFP for you.
Damprye-Oh to be enjoying life i cant wait to have that feeling back i am glad you have found some happyness lets hope it rubs off.
AFM-I am sick as a dog with the flu i feel dreadful i have coughed so much my belly feels like ive torn muscles and my chest feels like it is stuffed full of soggy bread. We got a call from the geneticist with a preliminary chromosone results they were all normal and we definately have a little lady on board no mistaking that so now just the cholesterol enzyme result by the end of the week.
I am doing the whole phone call senerio over and over in my head all the possible things they could say like i am sorry but we dont have good news to we have the results and they are all normal why am i tormenting myself.
Ferrals- I have everything crossed for you and your little bub darl that everything is great with her. Sending you both lots of love darl and cyber hugs as well. So far so good darl, we are all here for you and I can just feel it that everything is going to be great for you and your little baby girl.
Luna- I am now 8 days late for AF, did a test before going away on the week end and I got a BFN did another on Sunday night admittantly I'm sure I never had enough P for my stick IYKWIM it took 3minutes for anything to come up but when it did eventually come up with a result it was also a BFN. Very frustrating for me atm.....lol....
AFM- Well I have just used an OPT as a HPT as I'm concerned that I will waste yet another HPT on a BFN. So I did the whole POAS thing about 30minutes ago now could be longer but if what I have been told is true and the OPT can be used as a HPT also well then it's looking like good news for me. I had the +ive line come up with in a minute of POAS on my OPT and the test line just kept getting darker until it got darker than the control line. So please correct me if I am wrong but are OPTs just as reliable as a HPT???? I will being doing a HPT in the morning with FMU just to double check. FX for me......plz plz plz let me have a BFP and a very sticky little bub.
Clairsmummy-I have read that opks can be used as HPT if your AF is due or late but to be honest if the HPT are neg i would disregard the opks as i have had positive opks right up until AF is due as some of them can detect the LH hormone after O and show positive that is why the instructions say once you get your 1st pos on a opk dont test any more but if you are very late it is a good sign my fingers are crossed for you.
Thanks Ferrals- Did the whole POAS with my FR PG test this morning and it was yet again another BFN so going to try and get in to see my DR today and find out what's happening with me. Maybe I'm O'ing really really late this cycle, I'm at CD34 today AF is now 9 days late and my nipples are so tender today it's painful wearing clothing, so I have no idea what's going on this cycle. Sorry to get anybodies hopes up for an upcoming BFP to break our drought in here........
ferrals - that's great news about the preliminary results, I'm going cross eyed keeping everything crossed over here lol, hoping the cholesterol enzyme result is normal as well. You'll be able to have a tag rippin off party once you know she's coming home to stay! hehehe.
Clairsmummy - Hoping you get your BFP this morning.
India's - Have a fantastic holiday...I would love one right about now!
AFM - still keeping busy, don't think my bathroom has ever been so clean, to the point of cleaning every line of grout with a little nail brush. Although I had another meltdown while working out what to wear to DH work Christmas party. Last Christmas I was going to where a blue dress I owed and decided no I'll keep it for this year because I was convinced I would be pregnant by now and it would have made a lovely belly dress....idiot!
Clairesmummy I'm hoping your post was last night 'cause I'm dying to hear how you went now! We could really do with some cheering up in here! Good luck and I hope you've got a BFP waiting for you this morning!
Ferrals, sorry you've got a miserable flu. Not surprising really with all the stress and strain you've been through. So far so good, all we need now is that last piece of happy news to set you on your way to a happy pregnancy that you can start enjoying and celebrating! Positive thoughts, positive thoughts xxx
Sunbeam, have a wonderful trip away, I hope you get lots of sun on your head and enjoy relaxing to the sound of water lapping around you...ah, how blissful! Hope you feel re-energised when you get back and ready for your next stim cycle. xx
Luna, that doesn't sound right, you poor thing I can't believe this has gone on for seven weeks no wonder you are at your wits end with it. What's the latest?
Saffy, hum dee doo ... just waiting for your injections to start so I can get excited with you! I hope this cycle goes smoothly for you
India's Mum, don't be harsh with yourself about what you said, that is your experience and we are all mightily sick to death of being told to relax and if anything is going to make me spit, it's hearing those words. I would have responded in exactly the same way and maybe next time she'll think a bit more about it before saying something stupid and insensitive. Sorry, just makes me cross! Anyway, holiday. Yes, Bali is a great idea. My DH and I went a few years ago and it was just the most relaxing holiday...beautiful food, lovely locals, warm weather. I hope you have a wonderful time xx
Damprye, great to hear things have picked up for you. Moving house is always good once you are there - fresh start and all that though packing to move is always stressful so I hope you can get things sorted quickly. Social drinking sounds like fun - I've been off alcohol for months, feel like a nun. Haven't even had one drink since our BFN but just haven't felt like it. Happy days to you!
Hello Crafty, MatthewsMum, Mildez, Porsche, Toomanyshoes, and anyone else I've missed or who is lurking x
Well I saw my TCM doc yesterday and she was really gutted for us. Said she felt quite hopeful when she saw me during the TWW so was very sorry it hadn't worked for us. She wants me to wait a few months to see if I can get my cycle to 12 days at 36.7 in the leutal phase so that's my goal now. Ah, seems like hard work, I have to say but I guess I have to keep going. I think I will relax the diet a bit though (80/20 rule) 'cause you have to live and sometimes it can be very restrictive. Especially with our birthdays coming up it's going to be hard. Can't believe I'm going to be 42 and still TTC. Sigh. Oh well, I guess I still have a few more years in me. Had a lovely PM from one of the ladies in the other thread who knows someone who has been successful with fostering and a similar background to me. That made me feel very optimistic that we'll have our family one day soon, one way or another. So I'll be here charting away and following you all along and hoping we can get some BFPs in here soon 'cause we need them. Onwards and upwards everyone!! xx
Hey TooManyShoes and Alice- I got a BFN this morning on my HPT. I'm thinking now that my cycle is so messed up this month it don't know what the hang is going on either. I have never ever been this late for AF only when I have had a BFP has AF ever been this late. Usually she varies 1-2 days not bloody 9 like it is now. I'm just alittle peeved at myself this morning nothing major just a little let down but in all honesty I did expect a BFN.
Toomanyshoes, we posted at the same time. Ah yes, the ol' toothbrush/nailbrush to clean the grout routine - I'm with you on that!! Why is it that our bathrooms are the first place we clean to within an inch of our lives when we feel upset? Though I must admit mine is pretty disgusting right now. I have a brand new dress hanging in the closet that I bought for summer thinking it would be perfect for an ever expanding belly - it's like a loose rag on me, very depressing. I've had a look online (my niece's suggestion) but I think I'm just going to have to get out of the house and buy something. I think we both need some shopping therapy. Are you up for the challenge? x
Hey Clairesmummy, we posted at the same time too. Sorry for your BFN wow, I wonder what is going on with your cycle?? Maybe you ovulated really late this month or didn't ovulate? You're not seeing an FS are you? I wonder who you could ask? I guess it's a waiting game - bloody AF never around when you want her and always here when you don't!
Last edited by Alice; October 20th, 2010 at 08:13 AM.
Clairesmummy - The BFN sucks, hope you get some answers soon and your cycle settles back in nicely.
Alice - I've already been bad with the shopping, started a 2nd Christmas tree but my justification was that it's for mums place lol DH and I were naughty and opened our Christmas present early, Canon EOS 500D DSLR camera, so I've been playing with that. I gave DH my CC's on Sunday because I knew this week I wouldn't be able to stop myself, I always spend too much when upset and the thing is, I usually end up with stuff I'm not that happy with anyway...I'm trying to pull myself together to go out and buy something for my SIL who is having a baby in 6ish weeks, I've been doing the whole walk into the baby section, feel my eyes tear up, turn around and exit as fast as I can.
Although the one thing I would like to buy is another house, I must be out of the loop or something because it's like every 2nd house around here is either for sale or rent!
Just a quick update, becasue it is way past my bedtime. The scan showed empty uterus, the doctor says that since nothing is showing, I am not in pain, and 680 is low for even ectopic 7 week pregnancy, it was most probably just early miscarriage. I think he is right. Weird, I also think it is over now, bleeding stopped today. At least I can put this behind me and get ready for TTC again. I hope that the hcg will clear up fast now.
AFM-one more sleep i should get a call tomorrow if they had no problems with the testing i am not feeling so optimistic i keep expecting that kick in the guts that i have had so many times before.
nearly there Ferrals we're all hoping for the best possible outcome and then it will be celebration central here you deserve it so much not long to go now we're all praying for you xx
Luna, I'm so sorry your loss, I hope you can get on your way again soon with a happy outcome for you and your familyx
Toomanyshoes, I know what you mean about buying things you don't really want when you are feeling sad. I feel like it's something I should do rather than something I want to do IYKWIM. Had to laugh at your 'early' Christmas - it's not even December yet!! What about buying your SIL something for herself rather than the baby? I once got a girlfriend a whole lot of lovely indulgent body creams etc and she was so happy with it as plenty of people had got her things for the baby that way you can avoid the baby shops. Or I have seen really nice baby massage oils etc - might be easier than fronting a shop full of things that will just make you feel sad. sorry you are having this tough time x
Hi all, just got home so got to get dinner and an early night. Thinking I've caught Ferral's flu, feel very achy and super tired. x
Hi Girls, have been reading not posting as haven't had time (nightshift, DH's birthday etc) so might be a bit behind the times!
Alice- you might have the super-bad cold I have a while ago, all I can say is REST as much as possible, hope you feel better soon, what a way to get kicked when you are down. Thanks for your thoughts, I am feeling positive about this cycle. Good luck with getting your Temp in line, I hope it doesn't take very long!!
Luna- to you, sorry for your news, I'm glad you can move on now though hun
Ferals- good luck with the phone call today xx
Toomanyshos- I CANNOT believe you have opened christmas pressies- hilarious!!!
Claresmummy- god how annoying, sorry you keep getting BFNs, I know a fair few people have irregular cycles after a loss, its very frustrating when you have had regular AF all your life. Hope she comes soon
India'smum- don't feel bad, its so hard to explain things to people sometimes, I blurt out things like that all the time. When we were out for dinner last w/end, I asked the waiter if they could make me a non-alcoholic ****tail then he was trying to ask subtly if I was preg ( so they didn't put raw egg in it) so we had this awkward conversation that went nowhere until I just said 'no I am not pregnant', I nearly started crying having to announce this to the entire restaurant, every day it seems we have to confront these situations Anyway- good for you I LOVE bali, you will have such a great time!
Sunbeam- Hi- enjoy your cruise ( sorry I thought you had already gone) have a ball! Glad you have a plan too, see you in Nov! ( you will have some catching up to do)
Hi everyone else- babydust!
AFM- start jabbing tomorrow, had a nice quiet day gardening planned today but now have to go to a 3 hour work seminar ( not paid of course) this afternoon- and its a beautiful day!! Bummer. Having a quite heavy Af too, hopefully the Puregon will knock it off soon, I've been bleeding since my last AF about 3 weeks ago so am OVER IT!!
ferrals - still got everything crossed for today! Good luck with the phone call and I can't wait to hear the good news.
Alice - I thought about getting her a necklace with her kids names and also including the full term baby she lost last year but her family are really strange and it's kind of a "no go" subject, yet when I talk to her we've talked about it many times..I don't know, have to think about it some more, thanks for the ideas
Saffy - Hope tomorrow goes well, AF for 3 weeks wounds horrid you poor thing. And yes we were naughty but we are LOVIN the new camera, takes such gorgeous photos!
Luna - im so sorry for your loss darling... my heart goes out to you xx
Just a quick hi to you all! I really miss you all and I think about you all the time... im praying so much that your prayers will be answered really soon! I also wanted to let you know we had our 1st scan yesterday and everything is looking good, bubs was measuring spot on - 6w 1d and had a lovely strong heartbeat, we never got to see one last time so it was beautiful. Still petrified but one day at a time, im really really sick too so thats a great thing.
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