nearly there Ferrals we're all hoping for the best possible outcome and then it will be celebration central here you deserve it so much not long to go now we're all praying for you xx

Luna, I'm so sorry your loss, I hope you can get on your way again soon with a happy outcome for you and your familyx

Toomanyshoes, I know what you mean about buying things you don't really want when you are feeling sad. I feel like it's something I should do rather than something I want to do IYKWIM. Had to laugh at your 'early' Christmas - it's not even December yet!! What about buying your SIL something for herself rather than the baby? I once got a girlfriend a whole lot of lovely indulgent body creams etc and she was so happy with it as plenty of people had got her things for the baby that way you can avoid the baby shops. Or I have seen really nice baby massage oils etc - might be easier than fronting a shop full of things that will just make you feel sad. sorry you are having this tough time x

Hi all, just got home so got to get dinner and an early night. Thinking I've caught Ferral's flu, feel very achy and super tired. x