Hi girls I'm back, quiet in here isn't it?

Sunbeam- sorry its so tough this sh*tty TWW, hope you are starting to feel a bit better. For what its worth I felt exactly the same and still got a bfp (irrespective of the outcome) so you really don't know is what I am trying to say. When is the BT? I know you are testing tomorrow- I hope so much you get a good result, don't give up yet

Hi possums- nice to see you, have you found out about your EPU yet? Good luck for it hope it goes ahead.

Possummagic- did you catch the eggy?? you did, glad you were back in action after gastro and a pulled muscle- I know what you mean its hard to summon up the energy to DTD these days!

India'smum- hope your AF has well and truly left the building after giving you such a hard time!

Hi anyone else, come and join us if you are lurking!

AFM- well not too great to be honest. Time away was good but I lost the plot Wednesday after finding out a friend whose female partner was doing an ivf cycle the same time as me got a BFP-( its my fault for checking my emails while i was away but we had been updating each other so I couldn't just not ask her how she went.) So after a couple of glasses of wine I dissolved into a quagmire of self pity- why me, why do I always have to be happy for everyone else, why can't I ever get good news, whats wrong with me, its not fair blah blah blah ( you all know the drill). Spent the whole night crying and feeling horrible for feeling jealous.
Now just trying to climb back from that, spoke to a counsellor that my boss referred me to ( free through work) so will see her in a few weeks, she sounded nice. Still feeling a bit blah though.
Sorry for the sook, its a bit depressing I know.