LT TTC after Miscarriage or Loss #8

[Matthew's Mum]

saffy-lots of hugs,sorry

[Joeve]

hugs x

[Sunbeam]

Oh Saffy that is horrible news, you poor thing, and so soon after your mc too. Our pets are our babies right now, I can't imagine having to lose my little fur girl. There are no words

[Maruschke]

I'm really nervous about this new cycle. Last cycle's m/c has thrown me off a little. I'm not in a fantastic head space and worried about how I'd cope if we lose another bub. Wondering if I should pull out now before the anxiety gets worse? If it happens again I'm going to be a basket case.

[Sunbeam]

Maruschke - It sound like you need some relaxation and visualisation stuff. I do pregnancy yoga and have a hypnosis/visualisation script recorded on my mp3. Some clinics have meditation/visualisation CDs for sale or contacts for people who run classes for this. Stress will definitely not help so if you feel it is going to be too stressful you might want to wait till you are in a calmer head space. Good luck

[minniemouse]

hi girls,

i have been reading but just really haven't had much to say

sunbeam: good to hear you hit it off with the new DD, it sounds like it is meant to be

saffy: for you, that is so sad about your fur baby, we have 2 cats who are 4 also, i love cats they have such personality. Are you trying this cycle or going to wait now ?

joeve: good to see you in here (well not good but you know what i mean), what is happening with you ?

matthewsmum: how's things with you ? did you make any decisions about using a donor (i know it was a while since you mentioned it)?

Maruschke: im sorry about your recent loss, don't be too hard on yourself, there is no problem in taking a cycle or so off until you feel ready. i had my 4th loss in august & i am still completely undecided about whenever to try again

craftymum: you are so strong to be hanging in there, you just need that one good egg, look at indiasmum

afm: as i said above i really don't know what im doing, my feeling to ttc is indifferent, i was hoping the answer as to whether to continue would just come to me but it hasn't. my DD starts school in a few months & my DS just went into a big bed, i cried when the cot came out of the room because another baby should have gone into the cot by now so im thinking maybe our lives are moving on in another direction....i just don't know
we also had a guy we know commit suicide last week & i have taken it really hard, was just such a shock (& still is) & i think because of the recent m/c i felt it even more strongly


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[Maruschke]

Oh minniemouse what a sad time. Thinking of you.

[Saffy]

minnie- I was wondering what was going on with you, I'm so sorry to hear about your friend that is shocking. Big to you.

Maruschke- what meds are you on? The medication I take before a FET gives me anxiety/depression symptoms for a few weeks then its out of my system and i feel better (then I'm in a tww with its own problems lol). I know what you mean though, the thought of doing another cycle stresses me out. What does your DH think? Hugs x

sunbeam- thanks babe, I knew you would understand, I can hardly bear it xx

afm- like everyone here, need a , I hope someting wondeful happens to us all soon

[Maruschke]

minnie- I was wondering what was going on with you, I'm so sorry to hear about your friend that is shocking. Big to you.

Maruschke- what meds are you on? The medication I take before a FET gives me anxiety/depression symptoms for a few weeks then its out of my system and i feel better (then I'm in a tww with its own problems lol). I know what you mean though, the thought of doing another cycle stresses me out. What does your DH think? Hugs x

sunbeam- thanks babe, I knew you would understand, I can hardly bear it xx

afm- like everyone here, need a , I hope someting wondeful happens to us all soon

Just clomid, and yes it makes my depression / anxiety worse til after O. So I guess I'll be a little more solid in the TWW (Ha! what a joke!). Sorry to hear that the meds affect you too, have a . Have you decided to go ahead with a FET?

[Saffy]

No, I'm not seeing FS for another 3 wks, will have gotton af by then, I have pmt now so I think she will arrive sometime next week. I'll think about FET after that, not sure what i want to do.

Clomid did the exact same thing for me, I'm on letrazole but its used the same as clomid and same shtty effects, worst luck. Its tragic when the tww is mentally more calming than the start of your cycle! Glad I'm not the only one who experiences this, but I'm sorry you have to go through it. I think its putting me off doing another cycle, I wish my stupid body would do unmedicated fets. Between the stress of my cat and drug indiced anxiety/depression I think it would tip me over the edge!

[Maruschke]

Saffy I take double doses of my AD meds when on clomid. I hope AF is nice to you.

[Sunbeam]

Hi Lovelies,

Minnie - I understand the wanting to move on feeling, the TTC stuff has such a strong hold and is such a big part of our lives it is so hard to let go off and make the decision to stop. Each loss makes it harder and harder and then any other loss just compounds the grief.

Saffy - I do understand sweetie. I googled a bit and it seems there are things that can be done to help for a while. Sorry to hear the drugs are making your mood worse. I guess I'm lucky so long as I stay on my vitex the drugs don't seem to make too much difference.

AFM - I have some good news, its not going to fix everything in here but it's made me smile. I had dinner with new donor dad and he brought me his paper work from all his tests and his sperm count was, wait for it.......187 million per mil!!!! Anuthing over 20 million is considered mornal so I get an extra 167 million The best old donor managed ever was 26 million (down to less than 1 million by the end of us trying!) Everything else on his sperm was good except abnormals was at 91% when it is supposed to be 85% or less but seriously with that many swimming around I'd be suprised if it makes a differnece. I mentioned Menevit to him and he went straight out and bought some, what a difference to my old donor!

[Maruschke]

He sounds awesome!

[Saffy]

Great news Sunbeam- I don't think 91% counts as bad as he has nearly 10x the normal amount
Sounds like he has sluutty sperm to go with your sluutty eggs a match made in heaven!

[Saffy]

I think I'm 9 DPO here, hoping for a natual miracle this cycle, but I know its unlikely.

sunbeam hope you are stll on a high x
maruschke- hugs, is your scan today? x
minnie- thanks for the pm, hope you have a better day today x
joeve- where are you up to in your cycle hun? x
hi matthewsmum and crafty if you are reading

[Maruschke]

Ugh scan was crappola.

One follicle measuring 14mm, and they want me to trigger in two days (what the?) on CD12 and do the IUI CD13, when I usually O CD14. My follie is a day behind in growth so that would be like doing the IUI on CD12 if you go via follie size. I want to cancel the cycle. Why are they pushing me to do this so early? When I calm down I'm going to call the nurse. Sorry for the me post

[Saffy]

oh no, I hate that feeling, like you are on a factory line and can't get off....I'm sorry this is happening.
I'm sure you can insist on cancelling the cycle if you think thats the best thing.
My 1st fet cycle got cancelled even though I repeatedly told them I O early and they didn't check early enough and missed it, I was shattered but my next cycle I got a bfp, I hop it works out for you babe xx

[Maruschke]

Thanks, the nurse just called me back and said I could do the IUI anytime I wanted, which is great, although with one follie I don't feel too confident of anything. Moving on to gonal f next cycle, which is what I am concentrating on.