How is everyone? Better than me i hope.. Im cd 34 no af... Im offically overdue... Im sure it has something to do with all hormones and whatnot from before. im freaking out though cause as of 4/7 im going to be working 1 1/2 hors away for 8 months (2 different places) we dont have a choice we need the money.. But that makes me 3 hours from fs.. Too far to be able to have appointments and still work and be reliable... So my first concern is if af doesnt hurry the frak up ill miss my window... and then if this cycle doesnt work we will have to take a break for the 8 months and in all seriousness that will kill me. I think i will need to go back on meds...and that will mess things up in otherways. *sigh* im only just hanging on atm... End of next week i finish work here and have a break for 2 weeks. 2 weeks with no babies is going to be heaven...and saying that and looking forward to it makes me more sad cause its not who i am...and in terms of my work im becoming someone i dont like...and everything is really making me not want to be a midwife any more...cause it hurts too much and as a result i feel im harming my women cause i just cant give anymore....
I hate who i am becoming.
Sorry to throw everthing out there i didnt mean to it just all sort of came out.
Im giving a drop of love to all you girl its not much but i feel i only have a few drops left.
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Addit ~ how do you do it Saffy???
Pps i only asked Saffy cause.she is also a midwife. i guess it is also how does everyone else do it....i feel bad complaining and giving up when all you girls have been doing this for twice as long at least
Last edited by ~TT40~; June 8th, 2011 at 02:33 AM.
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