Just wondering if I can join in here - I've been posting in the LTTC after MC or Loss thread for a while. We have just got to the end of the most torturous tww I can remember, only to get a BFN I'm so devastated, it never seems to get any easier to accept, even after all these years. I really thought we might have a good chance this time but after a debacle of an egg pickup that left me in hospital for two days with bleeding, seems our good chance went out the window. We do have one grade 2 embie that was frozen on day 6 (it got to expanding blastie stage) but just don't know when/if we can go there. Sorry for the me post, feeling very down. Just wondering how much longer I can do this - it's been ten long years and family and friends think we should just give up, that it's too upsetting, but the longing just doesn't go away. I just watched Tears and Hope for the first time and it summed it up so well. Not sure i have the courage to send it to family and friends for fear that they think we're feeling sorry for ourselves. I know I'll get through this and I know I'll find joy in the good things we have in our lives again but for now it just all feels too hard. Thanks for listening. I'm looking forward to getting to know everyone. Alice x
PS Hi to Saffy and Loops, it's nice to see some familiar names in here. Loops, congratulations on your EPU that's a great # of eggs and I hope you get a great fertilisation report today. Saffy, hope your weekend away is lovely x
PPS Sorry, don't know where else to post, post-IVF, with no plans for another try for now, you are all mostly cycling so not sure if this is the right place after all...
Last edited by Alice; October 14th, 2010 at 11:23 AM.
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I'm so devastated, it never seems to get any easier to accept, even after all these years. I really thought we might have a good chance this time but after a debacle of an egg pickup that left me in hospital for two days with bleeding, seems our good chance went out the window. We do have one grade 2 embie that was frozen on day 6 (it got to expanding blastie stage) but just don't know when/if we can go there. Sorry for the me post, feeling very down. Just wondering how much longer I can do this - it's been ten long years and family and friends think we should just give up, that it's too upsetting, but the longing just doesn't go away. I just watched Tears and Hope for the first time and it summed it up so well. Not sure i have the courage to send it to family and friends for fear that they think we're feeling sorry for ourselves. I know I'll get through this and I know I'll find joy in the good things we have in our lives again but for now it just all feels too hard. Thanks for listening. I'm looking forward to getting to know everyone. Alice x
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