Thanks everyone for your thoughts and hugs...

Feeling better, scraped myself off the floor and told myself this is it, can't change it, can't control it, so get on with it

nicoleh hope Fridays scan gives you all the eggs you need..I dont think anyone is cut out for this..but this is the hand we've been delt. But rest assured you deserve a little miracle as much as the next person, press on Chicken, your almost there...

Loops & Trishy they are great numbers..keep us updated..

fatgirlslim Good luck for EPU tomorrow...excitement

frugal thanks for your kind words..not sure I'm ready to shave my head yet but hey maybe next week LOL..pity it didnt work out for you and the dog, I think I'd be even more mental without my animals to love. Sorry you had a bad day...

SaffyAh Saffy...what would I do..thanks for that, really needed..I guess the part I'm struggling with , is I can't see me with a baby..dunno if anyone else gets that. wonder if I'm just pushing **** up hill, sending myself round the bend.
Still can't believe you get out of sniffing this cycle...how ripped off am I LOL

Sorry to anyone I've missed and thanks again for the hugs...nice to know that there are like minded kind people out there, just wish is was under differant circumstances...decided I'm going to grap one of the ponies from the back paddock to show..give me a distraction while all this stuff is going on..

Meybe its sunshine we all need..big dose of Vitamin D