Okay...

Firstly, I have to apologise for going AWOL for the past week or so. After getting AF, I just needed to absence myself from all things IVF to clear my head a little. As it was I didn't even go for my blood test until the day before yesterday (when AF had pretty much finished). I just couldn't be bothered. I already knew the outcome
Please don't take this the wrong way, but sometimes it is hard to face the optimism and excitement in this thread when I no longer feel optimistic or excited about the process. That's not to say I don't feel happy for anyone who is successful or who has little wins along the way because I do. It's just hard not to post things like 'don't get your hopes up' sometimes. And I don't want to post that and drag anyone down to my level of bitterness and pessimism iykwim.

Anyway, I have pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I am going to be one of the unlucky 40 per cent that no one talks about. Of course, we still have two embies left but it's hard to see how/why they would stick when the others haven't. After that, it seems pointless spending more money on another stim when nothing has come of the $50,000 we have spent so far.

I have an appointment with the FS on Feb 6 so I will see what she says....sigh...

Anyway, sorry for the downer. I didnt mean to rant, just explain my absence. Thank you to everyone who posted me lovely messages of support, and to those of you who noticed I was 'missing' from the thread. It was really touching

In the meantime... I am ridiculously behind where everyone is but I will try to catch up over the next couple of days...but..

Miss B - I am so, so happy for you!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!

To everyone else, hope you are all doing well and I look forward to catching up with where you are at very soon!

Take care all x