N2L- You have nothing to explain- I totally get it and I have the same reason for dropping in and out. As happy as I am for others because I know that everyone in here has fought their own battle, it is still a kick in the guts each time I am not the one with the good news. We have a transfer scheduled for next month which will be our 7th and it is just gets harder and harder. I totally relate to not feeling particularly optimistic. I have no experience with anything other than failure and am definitely starting to question whether this is ever going to happen for me. My cousin recently announced her pregnancy- achieved on her 11th transfer and while I am happy for her and recognise that she has gone through quite a few more cycles than I have, I was still upset for myself. I felt like a total cow for feeling that way, but what do you do?
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