Hi Ladies,

Just popping in again. So nice to have a BFP in here - congratulations Coll!! Hope you have a wonderful pregnancy and birth (well, maybe that's the wrong word for the birth - but hope it goes smoothly).

Trishy - your jabbing days are getting closer. Hope you're surviving the wait

Trueblue - your dream sounds beautiful. That would put me at ease I reckon, seeing her in a dream and somehow knowing it will all be ok.

Trubabe - I'm so sorry about your pups. Are you feeling ok? Staying focused on the others?

Loops - I hope you're right about staying busy to keep your mind off things. I know that it can be sooo frustrating when you look back at where you were a year (or more) ago when you thought you were almost there but now this long winding road is STILL going. It's not much longer now, and honestly, when you get there you won't care how long it took it will only matter that you got there in the end. Jeez, that sounded a bit motherly didn't it - sorry! Have fun in Warnambool

Amy - you're right (about the synarel) - it WILL all be worth it in the end. It sucks that it all has to be so uncomfortable getting pregnant. What about all those 'normal' people that get pregnant BDing!!! So unfair.

Tantee - It's so reassuring to know that the second line does exist in those damn HPTs isn't it. I completely understand you taking comfort in that. When is your official BT?

Dreams - great news about your job - what will you be doing? Your sniffing days are getting closer too - yay! I did end up going to that party a few weeks ago. I only spoke to the pregnant girls a bit and just avoided the difficult conversations. One friend asked me why I wasn't UTD yet but I just said I was having some dramas with it and couldn't talk about it or I'd get emotional. Guess I'm glad I went.

I had a big clean up today and found the IVF cycle timeline from 3 years ago when I got pg with DS. It felt really weird, don't know why. It was so nice to be reminded that this process does work though. I might have to go into hospital this week for a D&C. I had yet another BT on Friday to check if my hcg was finally below 5 and it had risen again! WTF? So, now the doc has realised that whatever tiny little bit of stuff is still there isn't coming out on its own in any hurry. Wish he'd done it a month ago so I could get this show on the road.

Anyway ladies, have a good week and to all