Hi MrsA, and welcome to our little thread
In it you will find lots of women who feel exactly the same way as you do. We get it
All I can say is you aren't letting anyone down. But I totally understand how you feel that way. I feel it too. But it is an irrational emotion, not fact. You can't help needing assisted conception anymore than you can help needing air. It sucks but it's not your "fault".
Doing IVF you will find you had strength you didn't know you had. It comes when you least expect it. Sure, there are days you feel like crap (the hormones don't help) but you keep going. There is nothing else to do...

I hope your stay in here is short and sweet, but, while you're in here you'll receive lots of information and support from some amazingly patient and caring women.

Good luck x

Hello to everyone else I haven't been in here for a while. I have had a couple of cycles break. I was meant to start again at the beginning of this cycle (I am CD 9 today) but I have an oncologist appointment on the 11th and I need to have some blood tests before then. I don't want the FSH messing with the results. So I will go again with another antagonist cycle at the end of this one... In the meantime, I am also having tests for insulin resistance and having my thryoid looked at again. I have to say, I am feeling less and less confident it will happen for me and I will end up with a child at the end of all of this. I think I am just too old and fat
I am finding weightloss hard. I am just not in the right headspace. I was going really well for a few weeks then, when DD went into hospital, I just fell off the wagon. Now, things are crappy at work so I cant get my dieting mojo back It's so easy to always have an excuse I guess....Especially when, really, there is no excuse...

Sorry, on a bit of a downer today....

Hope you are all well x

Hey I totally understand the weight issue. I had to lose weight three years ago to start treatment which I did. The only problem was FS was doing all the wrong treatment for us. It went of for over a year We were devasted.
But the crunch of the matter was I am a comfort eater. So what do you think I did????? EAT EAT EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After changing FS - she said I had to lose weight. I had to laugh as I said if I didnt have all this other hassel I would have been right to start treatment.
So off I went. Back to the gym and dieting. It was HARD work but everytime I went to the gym classes I always had my mind focused on the end result. HAVING OUR BABY.
I did go to my local doctor for a weigh in as I didnt want to do it at the gym. I dont want everyone knowing and talking about it. Because what happens if it doesnt work?? Having to explain to others that ALL have kids. I just couldn't do it.

Its taken me since St. Patricks day to lose 13.7kg. Its been a struggle but now I am on day 3 of my ivf icsi cycle.

Losing weight is hard for some and easier for others. My best advise is dont compare yourself to others and what may work for some might not be for you. Just keep trying different things, gym, dieting, weight watchers etc etc etc.

Dont give up. Wishing you the very best.

Take care and baby dust to you

xxx