Hi ladies
I hope you don't mind me popping into this thread after ttc for two years clomid and gonal f not working now it's time to move onto our first IVF cycle . I spoke to my pla yesterday and she made it sound so simple and did make me feel better. But this morning after trying to arrange the police check I just got so angry! I can see the point but geez people in prisons can have babies!! Convicted crims! And I have to get a police check ive never even had a speeding fine! But that's not the worst thing my SIL had a baby a few days ago and don't get me wrong I'm very happy for them even went into the hospital but ... This morning when I said to DH I don't feel strong enough to walk into baby bunting to by a present he told me to get over it. I'm so hurt I don't think he fully understands how angry I am with having to go IVF I feel I've let him done and myself. How do you ladies cope? I don't have my first lot off appoinwnta until 30th of September and coz I'm starting a new job I won't be doing the first cycle until Jan 2012 but not sure my nerves can wait that long. Please help.
Thank you and baby bust to you all.
Hi MrsA, and welcome to our little thread
In it you will find lots of women who feel exactly the same way as you do. We get it
All I can say is you aren't letting anyone down. But I totally understand how you feel that way. I feel it too. But it is an irrational emotion, not fact. You can't help needing assisted conception anymore than you can help needing air. It sucks but it's not your "fault".
Doing IVF you will find you had strength you didn't know you had. It comes when you least expect it. Sure, there are days you feel like crap (the hormones don't help) but you keep going. There is nothing else to do...
I hope your stay in here is short and sweet, but, while you're in here you'll receive lots of information and support from some amazingly patient and caring women.
Good luck x
Hello to everyone else I haven't been in here for a while. I have had a couple of cycles break. I was meant to start again at the beginning of this cycle (I am CD 9 today) but I have an oncologist appointment on the 11th and I need to have some blood tests before then. I don't want the FSH messing with the results. So I will go again with another antagonist cycle at the end of this one... In the meantime, I am also having tests for insulin resistance and having my thryoid looked at again. I have to say, I am feeling less and less confident it will happen for me and I will end up with a child at the end of all of this. I think I am just too old and fat
I am finding weightloss hard. I am just not in the right headspace. I was going really well for a few weeks then, when DD went into hospital, I just fell off the wagon. Now, things are crappy at work so I cant get my dieting mojo back It's so easy to always have an excuse I guess....Especially when, really, there is no excuse...
Saffy and Yogi ~ Congrats ladies!! Very for you both. May the next 8 months or so be brilliant! GL
I think I am going to try and have a break from BB for a little bit. You ladies are the best but I'm finding out more and more friends that I've shared this journey with are getting PG and I think I kinda wanna just try and enjoy my life and try forget about TTC for a bit.I had a chat to my step-mum the other day who is a councellor and I think I agree with her that a break may do me some good.
Welcome to the newbies ~ everyone on BB is wonderful!
Goodluck ladies and for you all.
Thought I may join you all in here too. I am actually in the 2WW with still 7 days to go till my blood test - aaaaahhh! - but there doesn't really seem to be too much activity in the 2WW thread at the moment so thought I would jump in here as well.
Mrs A - welcome! I too hope your stay is short and sweet. In saying that BB has been such an enormous help to me in coping with the stress and emotion of IVF and I hope that you find the same. I just find the wealth of information and support is something that I could not do without - I would certainly go insane in the 2WW without it and would have been completely lost without all of the info I have learned here. Wishing you all the very best on this journey.
N2L so sorry that you are feeling low. I wish I knew what to say to cheer you up. It looks like you've been through a lot and that I've been through probably quite little in comparison. And I know how hard I've found this whole process so I am in awe and admiration of your courage and determination to cope with everything and keep trying. YOu should be so proud (and not so hard) on yourself - really. I do hope that you are feeling a little brighter today.
Loops12 - you probably won't be around to see this message but sending you lots of good wishes as you take a break from BB. It sounds like good advice and I hope it is a positive decision for you.
Happybaby – Yay, for starting your injections! At least AF behaves on the rare occasion and does what we want, he, he! Are you doing an Antagonist or Down Reg cycle?
Kmond – Hope you are not going too crazy over in the 2ww (I just joined you over there today and am already doing my head in – arrgghh!)! At least we can go a little loco together, he, he! Only 5 days til your BT… not too long now although I am sure it feels like an eternity away!
Loops – Hey hun . Having a break could definitely be a good thing… IVF tends to take over your whole life somehow and with not so good results. I nearly lost a good friendship over it the 1st time round… DH & I just cut ourselves off from the world as everyone around us was either pregnant or had a newborn!
I hope you are enjoying your time away and who knows… you may just receive a surprise BFP when you are least expecting it !
Nothing2lose – How are the tests going? I hope you are receiving good results. Try not to be too hard on yourself… losing weight is so hard when you are going through emotional times like IVF. I know I head straight to the fridge or cupboard when I am upset! I hope your DD is well on the mend and feeling good.
MrsA – Welcome ! Seems like we are lucky up here in Sunny Qld as we didn’t have to undergo any police checks. I hope you got through the bureaucracy alright…. can be so frustrating dealing with Govt. Departments at times ! Oh hun, that is tuff…. this IVF stuff is so not easy AT ALL! Big to you…. you will find your emotions going up and down all the time – one minute you are at peace with IVF and positive and the next you will be angry with it all and feeling like it is all just hopeless! All I can say is that you will now be surrounded with women who can understand the trials and tribulations of LTTTC & AC here on bellybelly…. I know it is what makes the difference for me in being able to get through it all .
Saffy & Yogi Bear – Congrats again girls!!! It is so wonderful to see when long time LTTTC’ers achieve their magical BFP! I was so excited for you both and am really, really happy for you guys !
Tantee – Good to hear you are finding the time to get things done off your to do list! This LTTTC business is extremely hard on the body and emotions so good on for you for seeing the counselor (me & DH also saw a counselor when we were struggling with it all… best thing we ever did).
You will know when the time is right to return to TTC
AFM – Just had my ET yesterday which went well except that they had to thaw 3 eggs to get the transfer. Made me feel a little nervous now as I don’t have such a big buffer anymore before having to do a stim. Also feel a little more pressure for this one to work as well…. Of course, I am really lucky to have had the extra embies in the 1st place and am so PUPO !!!!
Thought I would join in on this thread too. As you can see from my signature I am on the IVF train again. Am on day 10 of my cycle and am feeling like a pin cushion with having two lots of injections every night! All seems to be going well and I will hopefully be having EPU early next week and then transfer a few days later! Am getting excited but also a little nervous. I just worry how many eggs they will collect & then how many will fertilise etc... have to try and keep positive I suppose! They got 10 eggs with the first stim cycle I did 2 years ago and I would be stoked with that amount again (or more of course!) Fingers crossed!
So exited for you - yippee! Must be a goog feeling to get back into it all .
How are you feeling? I hope the meds are not throwing you around too much . I will keep everything for you that you get 10+ beautiful mature eggs! Are you having a scan before EPU?
happybabby - I hope things are going along nicely for you also .
AFM - Not handling this 2ww that well and it is still early days yet (3dp5dt)! I am having no symptoms (no cramps, no sharp pains.... nudda!) and it is starting to worry me . I know I just have to wait it out and see what happens, but I am not feeling very patient this 2ww !
Hi ladies
Loops I hope you are doing OK? I think a break from everything is a good idea, i know all too well how ttc & ivf can be all-consuming in our lives. Its always good to step back and enjoy the simple pleasures in life again. Take care & even if you are not around i will still be thinking of you and sending lots of love your way. xxx
All the best Happybaby with this cycle
And all the others about to strap up for this rollercoaster ride...good luck!
Again, Coral & KMond...praying for some sticky BFP news from you both soon
Hello Ladies,
Thank you for the warm welcome it literally brought tears to my eyes how people can be so caring of someone they have never met before. It really made my day reading your posts!
Well DH apologised and every thing is OK now. I did end up going to the baby store and seeing my new niece twice. The store was ok we my DH's cousin so I was sort of distracted by the conversation and not worrying to much about the store which was great! The first day when we saw my niece it was lovely, the next day it was harder.
I was also 3 days late for AF so I did get my hopes up and did not 1 but 4 pg tests and all negative I spoke to the FS yesterday and he advised that Gonal can lenghten the cycles... This morning well AF came to say hello so on cd6 im going to be on 150 of gonal and back for a US on cd 13.
Coral - Yes it isn't much fun having to get the OK from the cops and department of human services. Yep need to get a check from the child protection agency.... Oh the joy.. not that I have anything to be worried about but its all the waiting.
I hope everyone else is well, and thank you once again
I recently signed up to BB and it was suggested I come here :-) So...here I am! The below is a little about what's happened so far and where I'm at:
Our IVF journey begun on 12/3/2011 when we went to go see our chosen specialist, Dr. Nicole Hope from Monash IVF.
Nicole ran through all the procedures that we would need to take and what the chances are of us falling pregnant.
Based on Age: 50% chance, with a 98% chance of finding viable un-damaged sperm. This made our day as we had previously been advised that the anti-body build up in Chris' system was mostlikely going to make finding viable sperm very difficult.
We were then sent off to fill in a bucket load of paperwork and get our police checks done.
After police checks came back we went back to Monash IVF where they performed blood tests for the basics: HIV, Hep C, and several other blood conditions. Additional tests were run on me to give Monash IVF an idea of my current Thyroid function levels. We also had our first financial councilling session where they outlined all costs, and when each section needs to be paid, and then the counselling session with a therapist to go over the emotional roller coaster we are about to jump on. We were then sent home with MORE paperwork to complete and the instruction to make an appoint with Nicole when we were ready to proceed.
The paperwork given to us from the therapist was difficult. We had to sit down and think about what would happen with frozen eggs, embryos, sperm and other spemins in the event of one or both of us dying or being permanently disabled. But after discussion, we filled in our answers, and are now ready to go the next step.
The only thing stopping us at this time is money. We're short of what we will need. After thinking long and hard we spoke with our bank manager, as the medicare rebate amount we will recieve is more than what we are short by and are currently waiting on the bank manager to call us back and let us know if he can help. Come the end of this week we should know whether or not to get excited.
If all goes well, and the bank manager can help out, we will be immediately ringing the specialist and making and apointment to see Nicole on or around the 1/9/2011 so hormone treatment can commence on 8/9/2011...If it doesn't....our IVF plans will be delayed and we will have to start the next step in October/November.
Just a quick update from me. I had EPU yesterday & they collected 13 eggs. The lab called this morning and 8 have fertilised... very happy with the results so far. Not sure if we are going to have a day 3 or 5 transfer yet... will find out Thurs morning.
Still feeling very tender & bloated but feeling better as time goes on. Back to the couch for me!
Thought I might introduce myself here too....I have had a blog here for a while now but only posted on the forum everynow and then. We have been trying for baby No2 for nearly 2yrs now. We conceived DD in Dec 2007 after DH had a vasectomy reversal in Nov 2007 so only after one month. We started trying for bubs No2 in Sept 2009 and by April 2010 I knew something was wrong so we went to a FS who told us DH had scar tissue and so we had the option of IVF/ICSI or another reversal. All said we should have no issues with IVF so off we went on this journey....... The short story 2 stims (14 and 13 eggs respectivly) 6 embies from each - 2 fresh and 4 FET's resulted in 3 BFP (1 MC 9wks and 2 chem).
My FS just keeps saying its a matter of finding the right embryo.....Im just tired of it all.....We have two embies left that we are hoping to transfer in the next two weeks...Im on CD16 of what is usually a 35 day cycle so tracking OV at the moment but Id say a week or so before I ov....
If this doesnt work I am considering another vasectomy reversal as we know we can get preg....its more a matter of delivery at the moment......DH isnt too happy about doing this but I just want to give us the best chance of having another baby before I get too old.....
Sorry this has all been about me but I will catch up with where everyone is over the next week or so.....
. I spoke to my pla yesterday and she made it sound so simple and did make me feel better. But this morning after trying to arrange the police check I just got so angry! I can see the point but geez people in prisons can have babies!! Convicted crims! And I have to get a police check ive never even had a speeding fine! But that's not the worst thing my SIL had a baby a few days ago and don't get me wrong I'm very happy for them even went into the hospital but ... This morning when I said to DH I don't feel strong enough to walk into baby bunting to by a present he told me to get over it. I'm so hurt I don't think he fully understands how angry I am with having to go IVF I feel I've let him done and myself. How do you ladies cope? I don't have my first lot off appoinwnta until 30th of September and coz I'm starting a new job I won't be doing the first cycle until Jan 2012 but not sure my nerves can wait that long. Please help.
for you both. May the next 8 months or so be brilliant! GL
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for you all.
. Having a break could definitely be a good thing… IVF tends to take over your whole life somehow and with not so good results. I nearly lost a good friendship over it the 1st time round… DH & I just cut ourselves off from the world as everyone around us was either pregnant or had a newborn! 
! Seems like we are lucky up here in Sunny Qld as we didn’t have to undergo any police checks. I hope you got through the bureaucracy alright…. can be so frustrating dealing with Govt. Departments at times 
! Oh hun, that is tuff…. this IVF stuff is so not easy AT ALL! Big 
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. I know I just have to wait it out and see what happens, but I am not feeling very patient this 2ww 
I spoke to the FS yesterday and he advised that Gonal can lenghten the cycles... This morning well AF came to say hello so on cd6 im going to be on 150 of gonal and back for a US on cd 13.
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